Friday, March 15, 2024

The Love Seed

  Several years ago during meditation as guided by Nisargadatta Maharaj I encountered a place he called the Absolute and the sense of I am where I could feel love, God, eternity and tremendous power.  Through my meditation I realized that was part of me and later in my work with recovering heroine addicts, I realized that it was part of all of us. I came to know that part of myself as my God or love seed, the origin of my “small quiet voice”.  Later in my life (2006) during my near-death-experience I realized it was the same feeling/presence I call God.  As I said in my last entry, that feeling changes my behavior dramatically.  We all have that capability and feeling inside us and we are not simply “sinful and broken”


Thursday, March 14, 2024

Loving Action

  I use the words love, compassion, understanding and God a lot.  I am aware that many people do not like the word God, which used to be me as well.  As far as I can tell, the word or words you choose to use make no difference but how a person acts does.  In the morning I often take a moment to close my eyes and focus on the feeling of love or an image of something or someone I feel love for.  If I can carry that feeling with me during the day it changes all of my interactions during that day and also the way I feel about life in general.  The changes in how others respond to my presence is dramatic.  Acting out of love creates more love.


Wednesday, March 13, 2024

Working With Spirits

  Today I helped a dog make the transition of dying by guiding them after the moment of physical death to welcoming spirits in that realm.  I did not know I could do that so I asked for guidance and listened. Before being put down she was scared so I generated and then projected the feeling of love, God and eternity to her.  Her spirit was confused in the moments after death so I guided her to the spirit realm and, not being allowed in that realm, I passed her on.  The love and power I encountered there was overwhelming and hard for this physical body to manage.  It’s been several hours and I still feel shaken.


Sunday, February 25, 2024

Reality 3

  Recently we experienced a large ($300,000, our life savings) financial loss due to the unethical and probably illegal behavior of our financial advisor.  Through meditation and given my current impression of reality, I realize that this loss is both meaningless and sacred.  If I was “of” this world I would consider this of huge importance and that it called for various actions in retaliation and attempts to get the money back.  I would feel fear and anger and probably cause a great deal of chaos. Alternatively, being “in the world but not of it’, as stated in my book, I could feel love, faith and compassion.  I have done what I can to get my money back ,while also feeling that “the universe is unfolding as it should” (Ehrmann).  The sacred part is that I acted out of love and feel nothing but love and compassion for the man that caused this.


Reality 2

  As I said in my last entry “My reality has shifted”.  I used to really believe in the features of this world like the importance of having a job, an opinion, the right appearance, values that fit this world.  I now feel peace, love and laughter much of the time.  I can also feel the eternity we live in and realize that in that case these things mean little or nothing. I feel that even when I listen to the news about what people are doing to each other and this planet. I even feel love and compassion for people when they are doing me harm.  I am also very aware that this feeling impacts all those around me and that all people are constantly interacting with the unseen reality around them.  I know enough to know I don’t know


Sunday, February 18, 2024

Reality?

  I find my current way of looking at the world/reality difficult to get used to ... at times ... and wonderful at other times.  Some time ago I made a switch during deep meditation where I could sense love, peace eternity and what I call God..  I also realized the feeling was the same as during my near-death-experience.  I  use the power of that feeling for my own self healing. I have also used that feeling/power in my healing work with other people and spirits.  I find that I can generate and project that feeling/power in working with others ... but only by allowing it, not reasoning, wishing or forcing.  For that I need a feeling of inner peace and love. I now feel that way most of the time.  My reality has shifted.


Wednesday, December 27, 2023

Love 2

  Back in 2006 I had my near-death-experience when I went to the “other side”, or was dead or near to death for however long it took  During that time I experienced a feeling of intense Godly love and was told that “this is what it feels like to be dead”.  I was then offered a chance to come back and “be of service” by spreading that love.  Since then I have succeeded in transmitting that feeling to others, though only when it was “called for”, not as a result of my own effort.  I also find that I can generate that same powerful, healing, loving feeling when I meditate deeply.  I use that feeling for my own healing and continue to attempt transmission to the healing of others.  It works for me and I am not dead yet so will keep trying!


Friday, December 8, 2023

Love

  I once wrote that “Love is a willingness to sacrifice and devote oneself to someone else’s emotional and spiritual well being and growth.  It is both a feeling and the action springing from that feeling.  Passion, excitement and lust come and go, love does not.  Love always increases the integrity of the universe.  It is inclusive, compassionate, understanding, forgiving and accepting.  Judgement, exclusion, self-interest and criticism do not fit within love”

That strikes me today as a very good description.  More recently I have been reflecting on the power of love to heal and support everything and everyone who experiences it.  As I have described earlier in my journal, I use love for my own physical healing.  Feeling love also broadcasts into the energy around us, affecting all, as do fear and anger.  I used to feel a lot of fear and anger — I much prefer the feeling of love.

 "Love has a quality you can learn to discern.  It 'feels right'.  It is truthful and inclusive.  There is no objective measurement to confirm that you are experiencing love.  You can only trust your intuition and do your best.  If you do, your capacity to discern love will grow.  We are all learning this skill." (Shepherd Hoodwin)


Sunday, December 3, 2023

Conscious 2

  I would certainly like to know and understand more about consciousness, but I am also grateful to know that it is far more complex and expansive than commonly believed.  I find that if I listen openly and without judgment or fear, I can hear the “whispers” of plants, spirits and various forces from within the unseen realm around us.  I often notice “lower” animals responding to those whispers as well and suspect that the ability has evolutionary significance.  I have also had several out-of-body experiences when my consciousness seemed to be out of my body.  “There is a door in the mind that opens with acceptance, and closes with judgment of any kind.    There is a door in the heart that opens with trust and closes when fear of any kind is felt.”  (Paul Ferrini)


Monday, November 27, 2023

Listening

Today I have been reflecting on my ability to listen deeply, which I work on daily and have commented on many times in this journal.  My ability to listen has added greatly to the richness of my life.  If I am internally quiet I can communicate with the plants in my yard, feel the more intense feelings of those I am interacting with and communicate with spirits.  I just have to quiet my internal dialog, which of course requires constant attention and is next to impossible.  I do better to not watch or listen to much news and stay away from rapid fire things like the internet.  I like meditation and quiet time.  Laughing at my own brain chatter rather than fighting or judging it also helps.