Saturday, September 10, 2016


I must have really listened to the words I wrote for the last few days because I feel a great deal better, though nothing has changed, it is still too hot, too humid and I still have mouth pain. Journaling certainly helps pull the truth out and clarify issues. During my writing or working with others I frequently say or write things I need to pay attention to. I also stay open to the comments of others. It often helps to quiet the ego in the process.

Friday, September 9, 2016

Dealing with difficulties 2

After a period of some self-centered stewing about the negative aspects (too hot, too humid, mouth pain) of my current situation, I realized that I needed to pay attention to the words I said yesterday. Additionally, I needed to acknowledge my own difficulties while focusing on the needs of others. It also helps to be grateful for my gifts. That all sounds easy but I don’t find it so.

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Dealing With Defects

My comments of two days ago about embracing my "defects" or the undesirable aspects of self came up again several times today. The source of that comment is that if I accept those parts of myself, admit them openly and apply a little gentle loving laughter when I spot them, they lose their power over me and can drift away like clouds in the sky. On the other hand if I fight them they are likely to get stronger and, at the very least, have power over me as I oppose them. Once I accept them, they become shadows of their former selves, or go away.

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Being Human

Today I was very aware that I am not the person I would like to be. I am the inspiration and model for a goodly number of people and that is quite genuine. I freely and openly admit to my many less than loving thoughts and attraction to distractions of all sorts. I also get embroiled in day to day activities, thinking them to have some importance. These are all wonderful parts of being human - including the inspiration part. This is all part of being "Charlie" and a good part of why I write this blog rather than sequestering myself from life’s process. I embrace all I just spoke of.

Monday, September 5, 2016

Being at Peace

Today was a "taking care of business" kind of day and, as often happens during this sort of day, I note how easy it is to be pulled off of the spiritual, love-based path. I paid bills, took the car in to get it worked on and answered correspondence. I had to keep reminding myself and bringing myself back to feelings of love, peace, well-being and compassion, feelings I identify with God. A comment by Saint Faustina helped me a lot; "When a soul has come out of these tribulations, it is deeply humble. Its purity of soul is great. It knows better without need of reflecting, as it were, what it ought too do at a given moment and what to forbear. It feels the lightest touch of grace and is very faithful to God. It recognizes God from afar and continuously rejoices in Him. It discovers God very quickly in other souls and in its environment in general." It’s good to cherish the gift of life.

Sunday, September 4, 2016


I have been feeling grateful for the several people I have connected with during the last few days. Yesterday I went to a new (good meeting - but way to big!) recovery meeting with one of the people I am getting to know. We also talked for a while. She is helping me fit in to the recovery community here. Today I spent some time with the Friends, talking and connecting. It’s really nice to have these groups and be open to their welcoming assistance. Not surprisingly, they are wanting to talk about life’s struggles since they sense me as a safe person who knows about struggling.