As I said in the meeting tonight, “I believe that life is perfect right now, and there is a pretty good chance that will be true tomorrow!” Perfection , for me, does not mean there is no room for growth and change, it just means that things are just fine the way they are and that I very much enjoy the human experience. That attitude is quite remarkable since I have spent most of my life living with guilt, shame, low self worth, rules of conduct and a lot of fear. It took being near death a few times for me to realize the truth of what I heard years ago, that “nothing matters very much and very few things matter at all”. With that in mind, the emotions that were troubling me, my personal demons, fell away, with effort.
As I said in the previous paragraph, I had a lot of personal demons. The way I have gotten (mostly!) past them is to “hold hands” with them, confront them and work through them, one at a time. When I say hold hands with them, I mean accept and embrace them as part of me, I can then do the work of confronting and working past them. During the process, my central focus was my spiritual condition. I could only do the work from within love. The process was neither pretty nor fun.