Saturday, January 9, 2016

Staying on Track

I "play my piano and sing my little song", meaning I am one simple man doing my best. I attempt to take action according to the questions I outline in my book (would I do this in front of God?; is it really my responsibility?; will this increase the integrity of the universe?), simple questions that are difficult to answer. My daily practice of meditation and asking for guidance makes it possible for me to stay on track.

Friday, January 8, 2016


The topic for today’s recovery meeting was "faith" and, as a result of my reflecting on the topic, I have realized that I have a very deep faith that everything in my life will be just fine. I also realized that I haven’t the slightest idea what that will look like and that I very possibly won’t like it. I come to those conclusions because of my own history and observation of others. For example, I don’t really like my disability but also realize that it could be a great deal worse and that dealing with it has pushed me into a spiritual and loving life that is wonderful beyond my imaginings. The rest of my life is much the same - if I pay attention.

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Silly Human

Tonight I found myself chuckling a bit at my own foolishness. What happened revolves around a person in my life where there is friction between us, which, I believe, is caused largely by his reaction to me. Today it was suggested that I do a daily "loving kindness" meditation toward him, meaning that I visualize him, send him love and support and wish him a loving, wonderful and very fulfilling life. I actually have done that but only periodically and when the mood struck me. The part that I was chuckling about is that when she suggested I do it daily, I felt immediate resistance and also a knowing that it was the right thing to do. I recognize and even have some fondness for that resistant part of myself, but I generally either don’t act on it or apologize when I do. I began my daily practice of the meditation tonight.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Following A Spiritual Path

As I have pointed out many times, when I got into recovery I had no intention of changing my focus to spiritual growth. Life circumstances took me in that direction. I had been following a path of increasing intellectual achievement and material acquisition, a path I have de-emphasized since it did not result in the fulfillment I was seeking. I still enjoy intellectual achievement and material possessions but I find fulfillment in my spiritual practices and sense of love, connectedness and inclusiveness. As a result, my interactions with people and this planet have changed dramatically and I think that others could benefit from a similar change.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

A Different Approach

I went to the movie "Concussion", starring Will Smith today and found myself identifying very strongly with the doctor who discovered the significance of head trauma. He ended up bucking the power and financial control of the NFL. In my case, I keep emphasizing the importance of love, connectedness and inclusiveness which is counter to individuality, competitiveness, short term and material gain at all cost. The reason I take my approach is that I have tried both and find my current approach extremely fulfilling and it does not result in destroying each other or this planet.

Monday, January 4, 2016

My Contribution

This morning the person I was talking to made reference to the chaos and destruction going on in the world and I responded that I felt peaceful inside. I attempt to carry that feeling of peace, love and compassion with me all day. Later on this morning I also commented that I will do everything I can to share and propagate that feeling, a small and large thing at the same time. I am only one person but I can do that, actually I can do no less.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Loving Connection

This was a very enjoyable day, a day full of loving connections and increasing the integrity of the universe. The day started with setting up for & then attending a recovery meeting, complete with numerous interactions before and after the meeting. That was followed by leading two therapeutic groups and multiple e-mail exchanges. There was a strong feeling of deep connection in all of the activities. Not bad for a guy that used to be isolated!