Saturday, August 6, 2016

Prayer & Meditation

We made our initial offer on a house today and were assured by our realtor that it was a solid offer that the sellers will take seriously & then counter. In the end we had a choice between two very similar houses. One house was actually a bit larger, with a smaller lot and was recently fixed up to sell. The house was several thousands cheaper and the smaller lot size meant lower annual taxes. That house was also more stark and less soft and welcoming in ambience. The second house, and the one we chose, had more of a relaxing, welcoming, retreat atmosphere primarily because of its lot, trees and deck. The second house was more expensive but less fixed up and it was clear during last night’s meditation that it was worth the extra expense. We chose the less practical and more expensive option since it felt right to do so.

Friday, August 5, 2016

Being Of Service

Things seem to be coming together here, a good feeling. We now have two houses that we can afford and look like good choices. We have also found some stores with decent prices and the, mostly organic, food we like. Most important of all I am gaining some clarity about the need here for my message of spirituality, healing, love and connection. I have begun connecting with the people at a place in Columbia where I suspect that I will be able to present workshops in spiritual connection, a place where I can volunteer and be of service.

Thursday, August 4, 2016


This was a day very similar to yesterday in terms of prayer and meditation, exercise, simply doing the next right thing and exploring a potential new house. I did not make it to a recovery meeting but instead went to the silent meditation of a Friend’s meeting. The main difference is that I was very aware of my intimate and firm connection to everything and everybody. That sense of connection gives my life a joyful depth and is part of the loving presence I call God. That sense was strongest with the plants and trees at that potential new house and then with the spirits and people at the Friend’s meeting. I am aware that joyful depth is missing from the lives of many people.

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Enjoy The Present

It felt like a good day, a day of doing the next right thing and moving forward a bit. I did my prayer and meditation, exercised, did some driving on new roads, went to a recovery meeting and began exploring a potential new house. I am still impatient but also actively doing the next right thing. I was reminded to enjoy the process I am in right now, an important thing to remember. Being "lost in a trackless desert" is perfect for right now and there is a sense of peace in that.

Tuesday, August 2, 2016


I spent most of the last two days feeling anxious, hopeless and restless, feeling "lost in a trackless desert" and doing a lot of prayer, meditation and quiet contemplation. I would like the process of transition that I am in the midst of to be easy - it is not. It’s time to take action in becoming and establishing "Charlie" in MD. In the process of doing that I need to continue being surrendered and being of service. The process is summarized nicely by Thomas H. Green, S.J.; "The life of prayer is perhaps the most mysterious dimension of all human experience. We come to be at home with a God we cannot see. We discover that it is only by giving ourselves away totally that we truly come to possess ourselves, that we are most free when most surrendered. We begin to realize that light is darkness and darkness light. We become lost in a trackless desert — and then, if we persevere despite our disorientation, we begin to realize that it is only being lost, in losing ourselves, that we are found. The whole of our life and not just our prayer life, becomes a paradox, an apparent contradiction concealing and revealing a deeper truth, because we begin to realize that we must live as we pray." Simple, but not easy and, as I said a few days ago, I will persevere.

Sunday, July 31, 2016

The Love or God Seed

This morning at the Friend’s meeting several people brought up families or individuals who were very angry, addicted to crystal meth, alcoholic or just had a very dysfunctional approach to life. At that time, I mentioned that I was a mental health therapists who worked with young, recovering addicts and that I had been successful in connecting with them through their God or love seed. I have also worked with very angry, dysfunctional people, many of whom were in jails. I have always been able to find and connect with their love or God seed, their good part. That part is always there. I can find that part if I approach them with love, understanding and compassion rather than judgment, criticism or condescension. Having connected with that part, it is then possible for them to look at alternative behaviors.