I have been carefully molded, that is clear. In many ways I am different than my peers and in other ways, I am just like them. I walk in two worlds, this transient one, and the “other side”, the eternal one. Many people have walked this path before and I thank them for their guidance. I “play my piano and sing my little song”, meaning I go on being Charlie.
I just met briefly with one of my sponsees. I was instantly, totally focused and connected with him and God. It was not something I tried to do. It happened automatically with no volition on my part. At other times, I have actually tried to resist this sort of transition, thinking I was too tired. I could not. It is a magical experience and profound healing can and does take place. Others feel it to and respond thinking I am doing it. I am just being a listening conduit to God. I also sweat profusely, my nose runs and it is exhausting to do it more than a couple of hours without a break.