Saturday, October 8, 2016
Every morning recently I have spent some time watching a beautiful and colorful Marbled orb-weaving spider (Araneus marmoreus) which has been making her web near my front porch. She makes her web shortly after dawn each morning, attaching a single signal strand to the center of the web. She then retreats to some folded up leaves to hide for the day, patiently waiting for flying insects to be captured by her web. She keeps contact with the web through the signal strand in order to detect any captured insect. She is a good metaphor for me since she regularly puts a large amount of effort in order to make her web, having no idea what the outcome will be that day. She simply acts according to her nature, trusting in the outcome.
Friday, October 7, 2016
I would like to see everyone act according to the three questions that are the central focus of my book: (would I do this in front of God, or whatever you call that power/force?; is my name really on it or is it really my responsibility?; will this increase the integrity of the universe, or is this loving?). I would also like to see people act according to the knowledge that each of us is emotionally, physically and spiritually connected to everything and everyone else. To do so would mean an end to much of the chaos and destruction that is happening. I am a dreamer! The least I can do is "be the change I want to see in the world".
Thursday, October 6, 2016
In his book Ethics for the New Millennium, His Holiness The Dalai Lama calls for a spiritual revolution very similar to what I describe in my book, a fundamental shift in attitude. He suggests "Spirituality I take to be concerned with those attitudes of the human spirit----such as love and compassion, patience, tolerance, forgiveness, contentment, a sense of responsibility, a sense of harmony----which bring happiness to self and others.......Thus spiritual practice according to this description involves, on the one hand, acting out of concern for others’ well being. On the other hand it entails transforming ourselves so that we become more readily disposed to do so." He emphasizes the way we treat each other, while I include the entire planet, but the approach is similar.
Wednesday, October 5, 2016
A good day, I was able to act according to the three questions that are the central focus of my book: (would I do this in front of God, or whatever you call that power/force?; is my name really on it or is it really my responsibility?; will this increase the integrity of the universe, or is this loving?). I found myself being judgmental and angry at a person I was living with so I talked about it, laughed at myself, let it go and did not act on it. I also made several loving and supportive comments to people during the day.
Tuesday, October 4, 2016
Today I pushed myself physically, doing quite a bit more than this sixty-eight year old, disabled body is used to - good for me! I did some cleaning, walked down to the lake near our new home and did some yard work. Before becoming disabled, when performing physical activity my muscles would get tired but felt like they were working smoothly together. At this point my muscles always feel like they are quarreling with each other, more so when they get tired. Taking the physical activity and combining it with the fear and pain I have talked about recently, the result is that I am drained and exhausted - time to rest.
Sunday, October 2, 2016
Maria and I began doing some work on our new house in preparation for moving in. She prepared one room for replacing the carpet with wood and I did some cleaning, primarily in the kitchen. The work we did was very grounding while I also dealt with the existential fear of becoming all I can be. I welcome the fear, feel it (very unpleasant) and eventually I will let it go, but I am not there yet. The words of Williamson come to mind; "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us."