Saturday, September 14, 2013

Support & Guidance

This morning, before the day really began, I asked for support and guidance, knowing it was going to be a long and complicated day, requiring a lot of listening, connecting, action and endurance.  The day was, indeed, very demanding and I was quite aware of the support and guidance.  My day did not really begin until 10:00, followed by about six hours of working with families of addicts/alcoholics.  Finally, I led a sweat-lodge, which was draining and required a different sort of presence.  During all of these activities, I was aware of the power of God quietly surging through me.  All in all, it was a wonderful day to be present for.

Friday, September 13, 2013

Staying Right Sized

A day of contrasts, mostly enjoyable, some not, all of it very good to keep me “right sized”.  For most of the day I was connecting and interacting with people, either at a recovery meeting or with my own clients.  In all cases there was mutual respect and caring.  Then I went to a grocery store to get some cottage cheese.  I went directly to the refrigerated cheese and yogurt section, expecting it to be there, which it was not.  I began searching for it and finally asked a store employee its location.  His response was to direct me back to the cheese section and get away from me as soon as possible, a response I am quite familiar with.  The look on his face and his actions said something like “tell the idiot whatever he will be happy with and get him away from me!” .  I felt anger and frustration so I knew not to take action or say anything, I left the store without my objective.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

The Power Of God

Tonight, as often happens, I felt very strongly “seized by the spirit”, a feeling of joining with and being a conduit for the power of God.  I generally feel it most strongly during my early morning sessions, while focusing on spiritual reading, writing, prayer and meditation.  I do not even try to understand that power, just sense it, appreciate it and be with it.  There is absolutely no question that I will do whatever that power wants and follow it anywhere.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Pass It On

I have an impact on the lives of some people, talking to them about love, connection and the eternal, while giving up their attachments to the material.  Since I am a therapist, the impact is purposeful and direct.  Most of the people I impact are not therapists so their impact on others is less purposeful.  In each case, we have an impact because of who we are, not what we do.  I received my information from several sources and simply pass it on.  The people I impact, in turn, sometimes knowingly, sometimes not, impact the lives of several others, and the changes continue.  It is wonderful to be part of the web.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

Changing The World

Recently, it has been made very clear to me that I have played a major role in changing the lives of other people.  Some were heroin users that have stopped using and others were non-addicts who are now more “awake”.  Additionally, they have all changed their attitudes and behaviors dramatically.  One thing that is very important for me to realize is that it really was not me that caused the change at all, that I was only the most proximate instrument.  In reality, it is like N. Maharaj says, that no event in life has a single cause, that everything in the universe cooperates in producing the change.  It is also very important for me to realize, that I stayed open, listened and did the next right thing, no minor accomplishment.

Monday, September 9, 2013

My Passion

I am committed to helping others grow and learn.  I want to be of service, and that is my passion.  For some reason, I have been given many gifts that result in knowing and living a life which is very different from what I was told as a child, adolescent or young adult.  What I have learned, largely from past mystics and spiritual leaders, is that most of the material things I was taught to value mean next to nothing.  What I now value are things like love, connection, God, spirituality, forgiveness and compassion, things I cannot see, touch or feel physically.  I now know the peace and joy that I was seeking, in spite of my physical challenges.  My behavior and attitudes have changed dramatically.  My passion is to help others know these things and change the world, one person at a time.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Using Intuition

Maria and I have a division of labor which, on the surface, seems imbalanced, even risky but also works very well and feels right.  She works around our home, doing the things that I either lack the coordination to do or simply lack the time.  She also works with other people in recovery and volunteers at a local hospice.  She, basically, makes it possible for me to function outside of some sort of assisted living arrangement.  I, on the other hand, work outside of the home and make the money that keeps our ship afloat.  I also love what I do and am good at it.  The fact is that what I make in an hour would take her a great deal longer.  My left brain says that depending on me for income is unwise, my right brain or intuition says the situation is good the way it is.  This is one of the many situations where I would like my left brain to be quiet!