Friday, November 1, 2013
When I get up in the morning for my period of prayer and meditation there are several tasks that I perform like preparing and fiddling with a fire in the wood-stove, reading e-mails or preparing and soaking in the hot-tub. In the past, I have looked on these activities as forms of “Splitting wood and carrying water” that actually facilitated, in a zen way, my focusing on prayer and meditation, and they very definitely helped. I now realize that those activities, if continued, are also a distraction from my main purpose. They give me something to do, rather than simply getting to the prayer and meditation. Originally, they facilitated my process, now it is time to let them go and move on, a change to be aware of.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Today I encountered a difficult problem, which I cannot give any detail about, since it concerns several of my clients. I have now worked through the problem, having made use of meditation and asking myself the three questions that I describe in my website (1. Would I do this in front of God, 2. Is my name really on it, 3. Will this increase the integrity of the universe). I kept asking myself the each of the three question while meditating/contemplating and considering various possible options of things I could do. I kept it up until I got a positive feeling in my heart/guts when I asked each of the questions. I now feel clear about the path to take.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
I was reminded several times today that I am my main block to my own spiritual and emotional growth. I realized several years ago that I was attached to various ideas, attitudes, expectations of what should be, and that my own ideas and attitudes held me back. Having realized that, my tendency, at that time, was to use harsh judgment and criticism toward myself. I have since come to realize that harsh judgment and criticism toward myself (or anyone else!) accomplishes nothing other than making me feel bad. Instead, borrowing from Kornfield, I think of myself as a warm, well intentioned, stupid puppy. I, more or less, expect a puppy to take a dump on my valuable oriental carpet or chew the legs of my furniture, and love that puppy regardless. I find it hard to be angry at the puppy, at least for long. A good approach to myself.
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
I arrived at greater clarity this morning concerning the value of the house we are soon to move into in Flagstaff. It is a simple dwelling that will provide all of our needs, a fair degree of comfort and few distractions, thus allowing increased spiritual and emotional growth, assuming we are each willing to put our focus there. It is about half the size of our current house, it has considerably less land, is in the center of town, it is fairly new and quite basic. It has little of the challenging, “hippie” personality of our current dwelling. In many ways it is the equivalent of the “shack in the woods” of many traditional spiritual seekers.
Monday, October 28, 2013
I recognize that it is a very valuable lesson for me but I find it easy to become occupied and a bit obsessed with the day to day events of moving, rather than focusing on the peace and love of the eternal “I am”. Most events in my life are not that compelling. I am reminded of the quote usually attributed to Ram Dass, “If you think you are enlightened, try visiting your parents”. The ordeal of moving brings me back to thoughts of worldly events and, since my thoughts are often fear based, I find myself fretting over little things that would normally not bother me. I then, using prayer and meditation, return to the peace, serenity and love of I am. Quite a contrast and valuable lesson to realize that many people believe in the day to day events, rather than returning to prayer and meditation.
Sunday, October 27, 2013
It’s a bit after 2:00 A.M., the time when I generally get up, which sounds pretty strange. The primary reason that I get up now is that the hours between 2:00 and 6:00 are when I feel most connected to God, or whatever you call that force, a special time for me. It’s a time for my most powerful physical healing. It’s also the time that I get my instructions for anything of import, later that day, generally my service commitments. It’s four hours of prayer and meditation that I do each day, changing my whole day and outlook on life. I know of no-one else who does this, though I suspect they are out there. It is a practice that works for me, part of my “path with heart”.