Groundless

Being lost, groundless, wandering aimlessly through a trackless desert, seems to me to be part of recovery, part of reality.  Earlier this week one of my friends spoke of that feeling as one of “nothingness”.  That feeling seems to be the normal feeling that results from mindful meditation, combined with giving up the attachments that provide the illusion of being grounded.  I am referring to the attachments common in everyday life like material possessions, belief in a job, the importance of being young, physical health or belief in the many tragedies of life.  In my case I have given up many attachments, do a lot of meditation and feel lost much of the time.  I am also free to be acutely aware of the world around me, a feeling I enjoy.