Paradox

I find myself in the midst of a paradox. On the one hand I am totally convinced that my recent move to Maryland was the right thing to do. I feel strongly that I am on the right spiritual path, and, in that way, I feel very good about my life’s events. On the other hand I am also lost, confused and impatient. As Thomas H. Green, S.J. says of the life of prayer; "We discover that it is only by giving ourselves away totally that we truly come to possess ourselves, that we are most free when most surrendered. We begin to realize that light is darkness and darkness light. We become lost in a trackless desert — and then, if we persevere despite our disorientation, we begin to realize that it is only being lost, in losing ourselves, that we are found." Life feels very good.