Last night I had
another dream about my grandfather’s pond, a dream symbol for my spiritual
condition. In the dream the water was
very clear and the pond was large and deep, suggesting that I am being very
open and clear as a channel for the God power.
Unfortunately, there were also five alligators (I keep saying/thinking
alligator, but they were slender, like crocodiles). They were all suspended above the pond where
the stone wall and big tree used to be, near the dam. At any rate, I threw dirt wads at one of them
in order to wake him up and he did. He
dropped into the pond, swam near me as I laid on the path on the house side of
the dam and then I woke up. There was a
definite feeling of forbidding like with the snake vision. Between the
rattlesnake and the alligator, I suspect I am doing something not healthy for
my spirituality. Perhaps becoming too
comfortable and complacent.
Maria suggested that I actually needed to
wake up all five alligators, that there is a lot of power there. She is right, though I know little beyond
that. I am fearful of waking them
up. I have misused power in the past and
I am wary of doing so again. All I know
at this point is that I need to be less passive and be more aggressive about
getting in better shape, physically, which will have an impact
spiritually/emotionally. Also I need to
look into the possibility of a reciprocal therapy license in MD. Each is proactive and goes along with the
possibility of relocating, instead of taking a purely passive role. This puts me in a strange situation, since I
am totally happy with my situation here!
