Having cancelled the men’s group for tonight, I take note of how hard it is for me to be objective concerning things I care about, such as the group and its members. When I sit to meditate on potential actions such as cancelling the group, it works best for me to clear my mind of all preferences, prior to deciding what to do. I can then be open to what seems “right”. Any emotional attachment makes that process lengthy and quite difficult to arrive at any sort of conclusion. In this case, as usual, I felt good about my decision after I had made it, but not before. Though I had an inkling of what to do, I still felt slightly clouded before my decision.
