Connection

I generally go about my day feeling connected, a personal part of the flow of life, a feeling of fullness or fulfillment.  Through all of the people, places and events, that connection is also with the source, presence, love or God.  I also enjoy some distractions like quiet music and movies which tend to break that connection but are still pleasurable, if I don’t over do it.  There are also distractions like loud raucous music and stand up comedy which break that connection and are not pleasurable for me.  I prefer feeling that connection the vast majority of the time.  I depend on it.  Without it my life is less pleasant.

Life

I have been carefully molded and cared for in order to become the person I am and pray for that to continue every night.  It’s a wonderfully fulfilling way of life which is described very well by Saint Faustina Kowalska; “When a soul has come out of these tribulations, it is deeply humble. Its purity of soul is great.  It knows better without need of reflecting, as it were, what it ought too do at a given moment and what to forbear.  It feels the lightest touch of grace and is very faithful to God.  It recognizes God from afar and continuously rejoices in Him.  It discovers God very quickly in other souls and in its environment in general.  The soul has been purified by God Himself.  God, as pure spirit, introduces the soul to a life which is purely spiritual.  God Himself has first prepared and purified the soul; that is, He has made it capable of close communion with Himself.  The soul, in a state of loving repose, communes spiritually with the Lord.  It speaks to God without the need of expressing itself through the senses.  God fills it with His light.”

The Kingdom of God

I live in a world of love and harmony, a world that I wish all could sense — if they could it would change the way they act and “increase the integrity of the universe”.   I feel that love as I look around me and see what we are doing to each other and the environment.  I also feel that love when I look at myself and my issues.  I know that I am part of eternity and The kingdom of God.  “The kingdom of God is not coming with signs that can be observed, nor will they say; ‘Look here it is!’ or ‘There it is!’ for the kingdom of God is within you.” from the gospel of Luke

Holistic Healing

For the purpose of self-healing I divide the self into three layers.  These layers are; the conscious-self, responsible for many day-to-day activities like cooking dinner or writing checks, the lower or physical-self, responsible for things like digestion and breathing and the higher-self which senses eternity and is close to God.  I have found that my lower, physical self knows what my body needs and when combined with love during meditation, can produce healing for many simple problems.  My disability is complex so I am now combining my lower and higher selves and then bringing in the healing power of Love/God.  It is an intense experience.