Being Part Of

It is very fulfilling for me to feel like I am part of something so much bigger than myself and not try to figure it out beyond the fact that it is loving and powerful. I will call it my spiritual or God connection and leave it at that. It is to big for me to understand, which is fine with me. I am but a small part of it but that connection is a big part of me. "To understand better the value of silence in daily life, and its relation to this spiritual transformation for which we yearn, it is useful first to consider the limitation of language, of words. It is next useful to contemplate the limitations of logical reasoning." (Daniel A. Seeger)

Practice

Today and for the last several days I have been experiencing a very strong connection with other people and with God/Love when I meditate. I have also been very busy but consider everything I do as a sacred gift and/or activity. I feel very solid, allowing and aware all at the same time. These feelings are a natural culmination of the practices I participate in like the self-care, prayer, meditation, exercise, eating carefully and sleeping enough. I also have a positive impact on everyone I connect with. "To undertake to live a discerned life, to endeavor daily to be attuned to authentic movements of the Spirit leading us into greater fullness of life, is a strenuous undertaking." (Patricia Loring)

Growth

When I was very young, before the age of ten, I noticed that the other children had a very close, loving, dependent relationship with their parents and addressed their parents as "mom and dad". My parental relationship was not like that. My parents had us children address them by their first names and did not encourage any sort of a close relationship, promoting independence. I have to admit that I felt the lack but also developed that sense of independence and absence of any tendency to attach. As a result of that early experience I have changed careers three times, moved several times, explored several spiritual practices and pissed off several authority figures. I have also learned to appreciate deeply the power and value of love. My childhood was challenging but also valuable in producing the man I am today.

Choice

Within myself and I gather within most, possibly all, people there is a constant conflict of attitude between my selfish, angry, aggressive side and my selfless, loving, non-violent side. I have written of each for the last two days. Each is attractive in their own way. The former being more satisfying in the short term and easiest to accomplish. The latter requires some patience and I find much more pleasing and satisfying in the long term. As I commented, I prefer to be selfless and loving in these, my older years, though both sides are present, which is why I use the three questions I have crafted and written about. "Would I do this in front of God [or whatever you call the power or force behind the Universe]?; Is my name really on it [or is it really my responsibility]?; Will this increase the integrity of the universe [or is this action motivated by love, rather than fear, acting out of love always increases the integrity of the universe]"

Spreading Love

During the day today I found myself in a conversation acknowledging that many people are making choices and actions that seem childish, shortsighted, selfish and angry. The other person commented that she had thought we were "better than that" and, in response, I commented that "we are". I pointed out that we each have the capability of making childish, selfish and angry choices or actions based on the love or God seed within each of us. As I mentioned yesterday, I have done both. I now live within an atmosphere or bubble of love and transmit that to others when I can. My work with spirits is an effort to spread love.