Validation

Through my meditation and life experience I have come to know many new, strange and wonderful things.  I am referring to things like oneness, the power of love, the Absolute or God place and eternity versus the created aspects of life.  Life is not nearly as simple as I once thought.  I am very grateful for the writings of Saint Teresa of Avila, Saint John of the Cross, Jack Kornfield, Pema Chodron, Rolling Thunder, Black Elk, Wolfgang Kopp, Nisargadatta Maharaj, The Dalai Lama and a variety of others.  They are/were all spiritual seekers who have known and experienced similar things.  Their writings help me to realize that my experiences and meditations have some validity.

Fears Versus Love

It is my understanding that, to some degree, fear is a normal part of the human condition.  We seem to have some choice in how to deal with that fear.  In my case, I have some fears over many of the things that I do or say.  Frequently those fears revolve around the possibility of being misunderstood or what people will think of me.  I simply feel the fears, let them pass and attempt to act out of love not fear.  To me, fear feels murky or cloudy, while love feels clear.  Meditation helps me arrive at clarity.

Presence

We went to Wapatki today, a place of ruins and high desert.  While there we meditated, did a ceremony, smoked the pipe and I could feel the presence and power of God, love and the spirits.  As I told Maria, it is doing that sort of thing when I feel most at home.  There was little talk and no distraction of any kind - just presence and connection, good feelings.  In order for me to appreciate such things, it has been necessary for me to wade through my own brain chatter and give up many distractions.

Letting Your Light Shine

Many years ago, I set as my goal, to change the world, an ambitious goal.  Since then I have realized that in order to accomplish that goal, I needed to maximize and realize my own potential, a task that I am not good at.  I have realized the truth in what Williamson wrote; "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.”  She goes on to say that “We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.”  I have found the process to be difficult.  I find that I am most comfortable holding myself back some and keeping a low profile.