Being of Service

  This entry has been very hard for me to write because on one hand I know that I am not “normal” or ordinary and that I do many things that others consider impossible.  I also know that I am just “another bozo on the bus”.I communicate with animals, plants, spirits and what I call God.  I have done things that were not possible to do and healed many conditions that I could not have.  I have done it all though help and guidance and I doubt that I was ever alone.  I am also Charlie who has surrendered totally and is only minimally attached to earthly things.  I lead a life of service and urge others to do what I have done, in their own way   “You will write and you will teach.  You will live an ordinary life, learning how to remain ordinary in a troubled world to which, in a sense, you no longer belong.  Remain ordinary, and you can be useful to others.” (Dan Millman)

Holistic Healing

  When I meditate I repeatedly receive the clear message that I have been healed which used to make no sense since I am physically disabled, not well. How could I be healed and a physical mess at the same time?  I have since come to realize that healing or health does not equate with physical wellness.  I now realize that healing and health encompass emotional, spiritual and physical factors.  “If this mental model is a correct one, then Western medicine has devoted itself —albeit brilliantly—to the treatment of physical symptoms rather than to the cure of disease.  Whereas the physical model defines cancer as a disease of runaway cells, Chopra defines it as a distortion in the body’s underlying psychic blueprint, creating that wild growth.  To eradicate cancer it is not sufficient to destroy the cancer cells, but instead you must excise the memory of the cancer from the psychic blueprint so that more wild cells don’t replace those killed off.  How can this be accomplished?” (Sylvia Fraser)

Change

I awoke this morning to the feeling of fear, unusual for me but also unmistakable.  Usually I just do my best and have faith that things will work out — a feeling of love and well being.  I immediately thought that I was losing my connection to God, which would be very unpleasant for me.  Then my fear switched to finances, then something else and I remembered that I used to call it “galloping fear”, due to its ability to go from one thing to another.  Time to contemplate and figure out what I was afraid of.  I realized that today I was preparing to begin returning to my “normal” activities and begin fazing out of the isolated, monastic life of the last year.  I was beginning a change in my activity.  I will take it gently and slowly.