That Force - God

The life process I have been through amazes me. It actually feels like I have been taught and trained very carefully. Through my prayer, meditation, contemplation, a near death experience and numerous living experiences I have come to know a very powerful, unconditionally loving, selfless and egoless force that, at this point, I would be foolish to deny. I cannot say that I understand that force or even want or care to. I have heard it said of that force many times that "there is something out there", an acknowledgment which seems to be adequate for leading a love based life. I now call that force God, a word that others do not use, which makes little or no difference to that force. The fact is that force or God truly embraces the human experience and free will. This is not a personified jealous God/force who judges me, considers me to be sinful or pitiful or requires any sort of obedience. These last concepts are human and do not fit within love.

Life's Difficulties

My life is very good and, as someone pointed out today, my life has also been very difficult, challenging. It is commonly the case that the good part follows the difficult. In my case my physical challenges have pushed me to develop my spirituality far beyond what I would have done or what most people do. Having just gone through my 31^st anniversary of recovery from drugs and alcohol, I have been reflecting on my process for the last several days. I really like and am proud of who I have become.

Small Quiet Voice

We all have inside us a very good, love-based, compassionate, forgiving part that is frequently called that "small quiet voice" and I usually refer to as the "God seed" in each of us, the part that is connected to what I call God. We also have the potential of acting according to that part, which is why I wrote Three Simple Question: Being in the World, but Not of It. The book is part of my attempt to encourage others to act out of the God seed or part. I am working on living and acting according to that part. That part of me is essentially egoless, very loving and oriented at the well-being of others and this planet.

Life Happens

Today was my 31 year anniversary of being free from alcohol and drugs so one of the feelings I had today was extreme gratitude. One of the other things that happened today was life, meaning that I encountered a number of challenges. The first challenge was early this morning trying to explain and resolve a problem over the phone, something which seldom goes well and that I find extremely frustrating because of my speech impediment. In this case I eventually asked my wife to help out and the problem was resolved - I think. Later on today I went to see my primary care physician, who makes an effort to be holistic but is still allopathic so she thinks in terms of pathology, prevention and potential harm. I think in terms of health, love and potential well being. In terms of physical health and given my disability, I am doing well, which she acknowledges. Part of my success has resulted from not accepting the allopathic approach to health.

The Presence of That Force

On the 11^th I will have been in recovery from drugs and alcohol for 31 years, as long as I drank. As usually happens around my anniversary, I have been reflecting on my life for the last 31 years. One thing that really stands out to me is that I would be very foolish and "unscientific" to not acknowledge the presence of some sort of universal force that I now call God.  The fact is that I have had my life saved twice in miraculous ways, had several cuts, burns and physical problems healed and have experienced several miraculous life events, all with no logical explanation. I don’t pretend to understand that force, but rely on it daily and know it exists. I also have no problem turning my life and will over to it.