My Process

I get up and begin my normal nightly activities some time after midnight. After drinking my harmonizing tea and writing in my journal I go downstairs for an extended period of prayer and meditation in the dark, quiet and peace of the night. Once there and comfortable I fill myself with the loving feeling of the Absolute. I allow my normal mind chatter for a while and then empty my head of it so I can listen for guidance or, recently, spirit communication. My normal mind chatter usually consists of things like what I will do tomorrow, obligations, what I will cook at some time in the future or some other concern that takes me out of the present. I allow it in order to determine if there is something important, something I should pay attention to. I clear my head of the mind chatter by focusing on the in-and-out of my own breathing so I can truly listen for any comments, questions or concerns of the spirits.

Love

I lead a life based on Love and service to others and this planet, service guided by that Love or God, its source. There is power there. Not the false power of the CEO or corporate president, but true power, the ability to influence through love not fear. That Love has completely changed my life and my commitment to it is total. Christ and his impact on this world is a good example of that power; "Christ’s way of propagating the truth------the way that inherently fits the inner life and spirit of the gospel of the Kingdom-----was the way of personal contagion." (Jones).

Exception

I am an "exception", in that the course of my neurological symptoms and life in general are out of the ordinary, not normal. It’s true that my situation, by itself, is anecdotal and not proof of anything but my condition also provides some information that could be useful for personal growth or research direction. While I was approaching my Ph.D. one of my professors said to "treasure your exceptions" since that is where the learning is. The focus of my life is love, health, healing and being of service. I employ the practices outlined in my book and have encountered a great deal of positive, loving energy - a force which I call God that is very real and available to anyone who is willing to do the work.

Understanding Is Not Required

I was listening to the old Peter, Paul and Mary song "Day is Done" today, while exercising. In the last verse of the song the child is smiling about his future, because he really knows that everything will be lovely and fine. I too know that everything for this planet and the people on it will be just fine - I don’t know what that looks like, which matters little. I feel that truth and know it very strongly, just like that child. That knowledge flies in the face of all reason since I also realize what we are doing to this planet and each other, but then "understanding is not required".

Balance

As Peck says "Life is difficult". I have to push myself and work hard every day just to be a functional human. Exercise is important but, in my case, because of my disability, the muscles do not operate smoothly like they used to so exercising is difficult, requiring focus. I tire easily but keep going, within limits. Of course, if I push myself too hard I regret it. Determining the right level of exercise requires balance which starts with my body and listening to it. I have both overshot and undershot the balance point and now do pretty well. It has been a learning process and keeps shifting.

Loving Action

Today I felt and took part in a strong loving connection with all things and all people - it was wonderful. I felt like a dynamo of love, an energy source - like many things of this nature exhilarating and exhausting. I am very aware that love grows and spreads and I have hopes for consequences. Part of this was my ongoing work with the local spirits and I told them to go out and influence living people in a loving way. I show them what love feels like and suggest they pass it on. I keep reading about the current political situation and desires to change it and keep thinking "we need action not more words".