Saturday, December 22, 2018

Choice

I have spent a number of years following each of two very different "life paths" — the first being fear based and survival oriented, the second being love based and living oriented. The first years of my life were primarily, though not entirely, fear based and the last few decades have been primarily, though not entirely, love based. They have each always existed together, transitioning between primarily one or the other but both being present, and probably necessary. The fear part of me seems very human, includes behaviors like getting a job and being a responsible member of society, both based on the opinions of others. The main internal message of my fear side is that I need to do so and so or suffer the consequences. The behaviors of my love side are similar, but I choose and perform the activities because they feel right to me and the internal message is love of life. "The Lord explained that it was needful that he [George Fox]’should have a sense of all conditions’. How else should he learn ‘to speak to all conditions?’ Then followed the critical experience: ‘I saw the infinite love of God. I saw that there was an ocean of darkness and death, but an infinite ocean of light and love which flowed over the ocean of darkness. In that also I saw the infinite love of God; and I had great openings’"

Friday, December 21, 2018

Living With A Disability

Two days ago I was visiting a person who has a disability similar to mine and is living in a nursing home. She followed a medical approach to her problem while I took a spiritual approach, possibly accounting for the difference in outcome. She commented that she "drools and farts". I chuckled and she asked why and I replied "because I drool and fart". The fact is that I am disabled and I accept that as a fact of my life which I do not like but "is". Tonight, with muscular difficulty and very slowly I raked up leaves from our back deck — I was proud of myself! Shortly after that I made a mess by spilling vinegar during the making of dinner and then noted the difficulty I was having getting food to my mouth while eating. I take delight in what I can do and find some amusement in my "challenges". I also frequently marvel at the speed and coordination of others.

Wednesday, December 19, 2018

Power

Through my work with living individuals and unseen spirits I have the position and ability to influence other people, a position of power. I do so with a loving non-directional approach, keeping in mind the words that Walsch attributed to God: "A true Master is not the one with the most students, but the one who creates the most Masters. A true leader is not the one with the most followers, but the one who creates the most leaders. A true king is not the one with the most subjects, but the one who leads the most to royalty. A true teacher is not the one with the most knowledge, but the one who causes the most others to have knowledge. To me, this ability and position is a sacred responsibility and one of service not something to be flaunted and taken advantage of.

Tuesday, December 18, 2018

Harmonizing

This evening Maria asked me to sit with her and harmonize with the ocean thus making it easier for her to do the same through her connection with me. I started by visualizing and then feeling what I described yesterday. I then focused on the feeling of a storm at sea and the roiling surface versus the calm depth. Then I focused on the various birds, from the gulls and terns through the ospreys and eagles, then the different fishes, crabs and other animals. I felt the shifting of tides and finished with the bays and estuaries which provide much nourishment for the entire planet. When I was done her comment was "amazing!’ and I agree. When I harmonize the feelings are very complex and it works best if I do not think just "be with" and "allow".

Monday, December 17, 2018

Harmony

When I am sitting and meditating on the banks of the sea of Cortez I join with the ocean and feel its, largely latent, power, fluidity and its life giving force, I am in harmony with it as part of the joining. Very similarly when I meditate in the middle of the night I join with and feel harmony with God’s power and love. This afternoon there was a beautiful, adult red-shouldered hawk perched and watching for prey in the wooded area next to our backyard. I could see its majesty and feel its vigor and strength. The hawk then flew down and captured some prey, which it ate. The feeling of harmony adds depth to my observation.

Sunday, December 16, 2018

Silence

Today and yesterday I spent some time performing regular activities like food preparation, talking to people and exercise. In addition I was able to spend several hours doing a very restorative mix of meditation and rest, what I call sorting time. During the periods of meditation I allow my mind to wander some and also spend most of the time focused on topics of concern. I don’t allow my mind to get into circular obsession but I do permit some wandering to make sure I address all my concerns. When done I feel a greater sense of harmony with "All that is". "It [inner silence] is to establish an inner peace, an inner harmony, which will allow us authentically to contribute to the establishment of an outer peace and an outer harmony in the world at large." (Daniel A. Seeger)