Awareness

Today, I was reminded that we are all part of the love and eternity of the Absolute or God, whether we know it, like it, feel it or not.  We are part of it and it is part of us.  Some of us get to sense that on a regular basis, through meditation and daily awareness, a feeling that I depend on.  Others of us only get occasional and memorable glimpses during special times and in special places.  All I can do is to continue to “play my little piano and sing my little song”, while also enjoying the journey.

Acceptance

The topic for today’s recovery meeting was “acceptance”, which has been very important for me.  Historically, I have not done acceptance gracefully.  It took many years for me to accept that my drinking was not normal.  Then when the constant spastic muscles of my disability began, I tried to fight with them, resulting in greater spasticity.  It took me years to realize that my approach did not work.  At this point I simply accept the life I am given, act accordingly  and go on my peaceful way.

Healing

The holistic approach I use for my own physical healing requires a high degree of awareness, self-honesty and discipline, an approach that most people avoid.  My approach begins by “being with” the problem, embracing it, rather than fighting or treating the problem as the enemy, requiring the  awareness and self-honesty.  It is then possible to work with the problem using things like unconditional love, visualization or hands-on healing, requiring discipline.  The advantages to the approach are that it’s free and it is independent of outside entities.

Boundaries

It was clear to me today, just how fragile my attitude of love, faith, peace & serenity is.  I am not judging myself, just taking note and I should also admit that my tiredness after the retreat adds to the apparent fragility of my attitude.  What happened was that I downloaded a file on to my computer and that file got past my system defenses to alter the default search engine (I switched it back).  The important part of that is someone intentionally crossed my boundaries and imposed something on me.  It was also a simple and expected act of capitalism, which I took personally, good for my humility!  It’s best to take note, let it pass and return to an attitude of love, faith, peace & serenity.

Limitations

This was a day when I needed to recognize that participating and guiding the retreat, wonderful as it was, wore me out.  I slept, exercised, cleaned my car and ate extremely nutritious, low fat, high fiber food.  I also did minimal connecting and working with clients.  It was a day of recognizing my limitations and staying within them, very important for continued being of service.

Affirmation & Service

I just completed several days of guiding and participating in a spiritual retreat along the shore of the Sea of Cortez, in Playa Miramar Mexico.  It was a time of intense personal connection and interaction, not to mention the wonderful accommodations and location.  For me, one very important aspect of the retreat was a clear affirmation of the things I have learned and the person I have become.  Over and over, during the weekend, I spoke of and demonstrated myself, with a return expression of love, support and respect by the other participants.  It was also a weekend of being of service to them, a definite win-win.