Meditation and Contemplation

Several hours of meditation and contemplation are a major part of my daily practice. It is through those practices that I listen for guidance and where I find peace, joy and contentment. I arrive at a place of inner silence regardless of the chaos that surrounds me in the world at large. I generally begin by focusing on the peace and presence of my own breathing and then allow my thoughts to wander to life’s events, peace, love and gratitude. "It [inner silence] is to establish an inner peace, an inner harmony, which will allow us authentically to contribute to the establishment of an outer peace and an outer harmony in the world at large." (Seeger)

Meditation

Over the last couple of days I have realized that within me there is still some sort of emotional and spiritual connection with the spirits of Gettysburg. It is quite clear to me that my work there is not over but I do not know any detail beyond that. The feeling is one of responsibility and a job not done. I am committed to doing what I can to be of service to them and the world in general. It is time to ask for guidance, meditate and listen. I will clear myself of worldly concerns and do that.

Spirits

Maria and I just returned from our mission to Gettysburg, PA and I feel spiritually depleted. While there I worked, therapeutically, with numerous troubled and traumatized spirits, exhilarating, exhausting and very weird. I realize that some people do not believe in spirits and I questioned the belief until I had numerous very striking experiences of spirits during my sweat lodge days in AZ. Many of them are just as emotionally stuck as living people, who I have also been privileged to work with. As with my living clients, I listened, expressed compassion and understanding, made suggestions and beamed love at them. Because of my own near-death-experience I can, and do, show them what Godly Love feels like, an experience beyond words. My hope is that by helping the spirits I will also help the living who they impact and influence.

Discernment

Many years ago I prayed for discernment, the ability to detect whether a message or action was from Spirit/God or from some aspect of self, some form of self interest not the general welfare. I have since been granted that gift, if I have the clarity to listen. On those occasions that I cannot achieve that clarity, I check with others that I trust. If I get a message, what a Quaker would call a leading, that intuitively feels like a clear, joyful mountain spring, I generally go ahead. Such messages are almost always other directed and sometimes at the expense of self. If, on the other hand, the message feels like a turbid, sluggish lake, I know to take no action. I also make use of the three questions that are the central focus of my book (would I do this in front of God, or whatever you call that power/force?; is my name really on it or is it really my responsibility?; will this increase the integrity of the universe, or is this loving?).

Love Is Honest

As I prepare to visit Gettysburg, PA I want to remember that fear causes biases, distortions and tends to not be honest, thus causing confusion and tension. Love, on the other hand, is honest and causes a release of tension and a feeling of clarity. I suspect that the monument that we are going to visit presents part of the story behind the civil war. However, like other "historical" accounts, it does not present the whole picture, the truth for everyone involved. As I approach the trip I want to remember what I call the "rainmaker ideal" "We have forgotten how to allow. The essence of the Rainmaker is that he knows how to allow. The Rainmaker walks in the middle of the road, neither held back by the past nor hurrying towards the future, neither lured to the right nor to the left, but allowing the past and the future, the outer world of the right and the inner images of the left all to play upon him while he attends, no more than attends, to the living moment in which these forces meet.

"In those rare moments when all the opposites meet within a man, good and also evil, light and also darkness, spirit and also body, brain and also heart, masculine focused consciousness and at the same time feminine diffuse awareness, wisdom of maturity and childlike wonder; when all are allowed and none displaces any other in the mind of a man, then that man, though he may utter no word is in an attitude of prayer. Whether he knows it or not his own receptive allowing will affect all those around him; rain will fall on the parched fields, and tears will turn bitter grief to flowering sorrow, while stricken children dry their eyes and laugh." (Claremont deCastillejo).