Harmony

Today I was very aware of feeling in total harmony with the universe and connected with everything and everyone, a very good feeling. Normally, I have that feeling strongly when I get up to pray and meditate in the middle of the night and then less strongly during the day when I get distracted by worldly events. Those events seem compelling at the time, but are, mostly, trivial. Today I knew all day that "Nothing matters very much and very few things matter at all".

Making Choices

It’s a bit strange for me to consider on the one hand that, as a therapist, I am considered as a change agent while, on the other hand I realize that I can change no-one. I can and do provide suggestions, but also respect and honor free will. I know and take delight in the fact that by making choices we learn and grow. Personally, in my past I have made numerous fear-based and destructive choices, which resulted in unpleasant consequences. Having experienced those consequences, I now attempt to make love-based choices that increase the integrity of the universe.

My Role

I am a therapist, a "change agent", who, very intentionally, works in partnership with that force or power I call God. As I like to say "I play my piano & sing my little song", which comes from a Ray Stevens song. My role is to love, connect with and then let go of the person I am working with. I always attempt to increase the integrity of the universe and do what I am told by that force or power. My role requires awareness, listening and discipline. My role is also very fulfilling.

Doing My Best

In my efforts to act according to love, compassion, inclusiveness I also attempt to be direct, open and honest. I do pretty well in my efforts, though I do fall short, especially when being accused, criticized or misunderstood. The words of Mother Teresa come to mind, "Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you’ve got anyway. You see, in the final analysis, It never was between you and them anyway." I do get defensive and feel confused when others make assumptions and projections about me. I have to keep in mind that the world I live in is different from me and my approach.

A Switch

I spent a good part of today talking about and in preparation for my coming panel discussion. There was an internal shift in that I found the activities to be exciting rather than dreading them and there was also a recognition that I would have to do this sort of thing if I really wanted to "change the world". It’s not that I think I have answers for other people, I know I don’t. However, I would like to see a shift away from materialism, competition and short term gain towards love, compassion, inclusiveness and long term sustainability.

Courage

This was another day of doing things to help me be "all I can be" on the one hand and self-doubt on the other hand. Being all I can be tends to arise out of the love-based , essence or God part of myself. That part of me feels confident and good about my activities to promote my panel discussion & my efforts to "change the world". That part of me knows that I am simply doing my best to increase the integrity of the universe and that everything is fine. The self-doubt part is very ego, fear and worldly based. That part of me says that I am sticking my neck out too far and that it will get cut off. Sigh!