Self-care

The disruption due to the corona virus (especially the lack of recovery meetings) and my wife being absent has left me feeling emotionally fragile.  There is a lack of effortless structure and a need for positive feelings and feelings of gratitude, all things I can work on and need to be careful about right now.  Last night I watched a movie about child abduction and general anti-social behavior.  Precisely what I should not watch and it haunted me all night.  I should spend time focusing on love and gratitude and, if I choose to watch movies let them be heroic movies about love.

Perspective

In my life I utilize a very large number of emotional and spiritual practices in order to achieve a sense of peace and well being.  Practices like quiet time, exercise, meditation, prayer, biofeedback relaxation and Tai-Chi which cost little or nothing and are largely self-motivated.  Practices that do not support an economy or way of life which depends on spending money, possession of “things” and external factors as a source of happiness.  These practices result in a very deep and largely unshakable sense of love and well-being which I wish others could experience — but most others do not want to because they would have to give up too much.  It struck me this morning that, given the current situation, they may have no choice, which may, ultimately, be a good thing.