Saturday, November 28, 2020

Connection

  When I go to a recovery meetings I can feel the presence of the other people because of their energy fields, it’s easy and, often, very pleasant sometimes chaotic or sad.  Today is a Saturday when I meet face to face with someone and we talk about recovery for an hour or so and I feel that connection.  I also feel that connection when I talk one-on-one over the phone, though the connection is less present so I have to work at it a bit.  I find the connection very meaningful and fulfilling.  For some reason, which I don’t fully understand, I do not get that connection during Zoom meetings.  Fortunately, I suspect, we will begin in-person meetings at some point.  For now it is good to know about the connection.


Friday, November 27, 2020

Being At Peace

  I am still searching for a new path, looking for that familiar feeling of inspiration for some sort of activities directed at my overall goal of “changing the world one person at a time”.  I continue with my own healing work and I have begun my journaling again and will begin revising my website to include more about the “unseen” aspects of reality — Sound like enough, but I am impatient.  I am seldom satisfied and always looking to do more.  I think it’s time to be at peace with what I am doing.  “You create a path of your own by looking within yourself and listening to your soul, cultivating your own ways of experiencing the sacred, and then practicing it.  Practicing until you make it a song that sings you.” (Sue Monk Kidd)


Thursday, November 26, 2020

Gratitude

  Today is Thanksgiving, a good day to feel gratitude — and I do.  I am seventy-two and I have to wonder how that happened!  I have encountered numerous physical, emotional and spiritual difficulties during those years, together with the methods of overcoming those problems.  I was led to the solutions during periods of meditation and contemplation.  I am grateful for the solutions and the difficulties that led me to them.  Those difficulties began with being raised in a loveless, non-spiritual, somewhat abusive alcoholic home followed by hypertrophy and a chronic prostate infection in my teen years.  Since then I have experienced my own alcoholism, drug addiction, a mal-functioning heart valve, my disability, pre-cancerous (possibly cancerous) conditions, a lung problem and an underperforming thyroid.  Meditation and God have led me to at least partial solutions to all of those problems.  I have overcome the physical problems to the extent that doctors re-diagnose me since the original diagnosis could not have been correct.  I am seventy-two, retired, married for thirty-eight years and experience happiness and joy regularly.  Not bad!

Wednesday, November 25, 2020

Path With Heart

  My overall goal continues to be changing the world one person at a time.  I am pushing for a shift away from behaviors or attitudes stemming from fear/aggression toward those coming from love/spirituality,  My actual paths and actions have revolved around this goal for years and it has always been “a path with heart” — I feel good about following it.  At the present time my activities are directed at the “unseen realm” of the energy field around each of us.  My behaviors, actions and attitudes have all been influenced by this field and now I am attempting to do the same for others, with Love, joy, compassion and acceptance as my guide.  “Anything is one of a million paths (un camino entre cantidades de caminos).  Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity you must lead a disciplined life. Only then will you know that a path is only a path, and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you to do. But your decision to keep on the path or to leave it must be free of fear or ambition. I warn you. Look at every path closely and deliberately. Try it as many times as you think necessary. Then ask yourself, and yourself alone, one question. This question is one that only a very old man asks.  My benefactor told me about it once when I was young, and my blood was too vigorous for me to understand it. Now I do understand it. I will tell you what it is: Does this path have a heart? All paths are the same: they lead nowhere. They are paths going through the bush or into the bush. In my own life I could say I have traversed long, long paths, but I am not anywhere. Does this path have a heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn’t, it is of no use. Both paths lead nowhere; but one has a heart, the other doesn’t. One makes for a joyful journey; as long as you follow it, you are one with it. The other will make you curse your life. One makes you strong; the other weakens you (Don Juan as quoted by Carlos Castaneda)


Tuesday, November 24, 2020

Responsible Citizen

  Yesterday I spent some time listening to N.P.R. and then read some in the “Washington Post” and, as expected, I felt a bit depressed and anxious at the state of the world and some of the things people are doing.  I was being a “responsible citizen” in keeping up with the news.  The presentation was balanced, logical and evidence based.  As is my usual practice I also chose to meditate on peace, love, God and eternity and, of course, felt much better realizing that, in the eternal sense, the world was fine.  To me, being that responsible citizen includes the meditative perspective and spreading peace and love in everything I do.  “To understand better the value of silence in daily life, and its relation to this spiritual transformation for which we yearn, it is useful first to consider the limitation of language, of words.  It is next useful to contemplate the limitations of logical reasoning.” (Seeger)


Monday, November 23, 2020

Godly Actions

  In the process of my daily activities and especially when approaching something new, as I described yesterday I always check in with God and the universe in general to make sure that the action/activity is motivated by love.  The activity I am approaching has to satisfy each of the three questions (Would I do this in front of God; Is it really my responsibility; Is this a loving act).  In addition, the actions I take are generally aimed at serving others, not selfish.  “The fruits of the Spirit [tests if leadings are divine in origin] have been translated as ‘love, joy, peace, kindness, goodness, trustfulness, gentleness and self-control’” (Galatians 5:23 NJB) p 5


Sunday, November 22, 2020

Change

 I can sense my life shifting and changing, which on the one hand I welcome and on the other hand I am uncomfortable with the feeling of being groundless and up in the air.  I have not posted since August because the inspiration was not there --- now it is.  I have not been reading at all and was told to meditate and not to rely on the guidance of others.  I have begun reading again specifically to find some guidance in my exploration of the "unseen realm" (unseen influences, energy fields, love, angels, spirits, etc).  Recently, my focus has been on helping my mother-in-law have a peaceful transition to death.  She will die very soon and I believe that I am preparing for my  next "adventure".  I always do what I'm told.