Gratitude

I lead a highly contemplative, meditative, introspective and spiritual life for which I am extremely grateful.  I am also very aware of the various antics that I and other humans perform each day and get tremendous pleasure from watching.  Rather than getting frustrated, I think of myself and others as a bit silly & cute.  Some of my lifestyle has been necessitated by my disability, which is just the way life happens.  My hope is that others can learn and grow from my example, without going through similar challenges.

Personal Fulfillment

I was just reading through “The Perfect High”, a poem by Shel Silverstein that I find very descriptive and enjoyable.  The fact is that I have spent years, in vain, looking outside of myself for a sense of fulfillment, as described in the poem.  I have now done a great deal of introspective work and have the sense of fulfillment I was searching for.  I also now put my process in my writing with none of the fantasy or romanticism described within the poem.  My hope is that others will benefit.

Paradox 2

I refer to the paradox I spoke of yesterday as the “empty fullness” of life and I take great delight in the situation.  I enjoy going about my day being aware of the paradoxical nature of my actions and the actions I observe with others.  It is clear to me that, overall, our actions are moving in the direction of integrity or love, albeit slowly and often hard to see, but always there if we look.  That movement is not quick, fun or easy, but it is happening.

Paradox

I have realized and am comfortable with the fact that, on the one hand, most of my daily actions mean little or nothing and that, on the other hand, those same actions are of tremendous value.  I am fine with living within that apparent paradox and would like others to know and be comfortable with the same.  First I recall the words of Pries when he commented that "nothing matters very much and very few things matter at all", which is true within our daily reality.  However, everything that we do, say or think also impacts, often only minimally, on the totality of energy or the integrity of the universe and in that way our daily activities have value.  That is part of the reason that I choose to act out of love.

Difficult Times

The reason that I attempt to work with the God part of others is that is the part that operates from love, compassion, forgiveness and connectedness.  That is also the part that may enjoy but does not identify with the  materialistic or capitalistic orientation.  I find that if I can come from and connect with that part, emotional and spiritual growth can happen.  This process is especially rewarding for everyone involved when the person is going through extremely difficult times.  Those times frequently end up being an invitation to transcend.

The God Part

When I work with another person, whether they be client, friend, mentee or incidental acquaintance, I connect with and communicate with, what I call, the “God part” of them.  I mean that part of them that is not materially or capitalistically oriented, that loving part that always knows what the right action is, often called that “small quiet voice”.  That part is always present and waiting to be listened to and nurtured.  I am often amazed at what happens when that part is engaged.

Becoming Ourselves

It is hard for me to admit but apparently I am a great deal more than I think I am, or so the response of others to me leads me to believe.  I think the same is often true of other people, which I frequently find myself telling them.  I am in the midst of a struggle to become myself. Personally, I have experienced several negative attitudes and comments directed at me which have left there mark.  I recall the comments of Williamson when she said "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.”