This website is about the value of love, spirituality, the potential of the mind-body connection and the connection with all things. These are my daily thoughts about my life, my feelings, and my spiritual journey. I post these "Daily Journals" on a regular basis, so please come back often to read my latest posting.
Friday, November 8, 2013
New Beginning
We closed on our new house today and then the realtor came out and gave us the keys. A very definite “new beginning” for us. We each have a strong feeling of letting go of some things we were holding on to and a new sense of freedom. In my case, I have always bought houses that required a lot of work and, in general, I had a high maintenance life style. As I have indicated in previous entries, this house does not require any work and is fairly basic, with minimal distractions. I will still need to focus a lot of energy toward my physical condition, however, the new house will allow me to be of greater service and for me to explore my sense of “I am”.
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Pain & Anxiety
Today, I was experiencing a substantial amount of nerve pain in my lower back and radiating through my buttocks and into my leg, primarily on the right side. I recognized that in addition to my physical problems, the pain was related to the anxiety about my coming move. In meditation I went into the pain and anxiety, trying to feel each intensely, and, after feeling the anxiety and pain, switched over to gratitude and healing. I need to take it easy for a few days, but I feel much better.
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Eternal Truths
It is totally amazing, somewhat incredible and very reassuring for me to find out that the various mystics, spiritual leaders or enlightened masters from a variety of disciplines have all encountered the same eternal truths as I have. Generally, what happens, in my case, is that I will experience something like the feelings of the Absolute in the God place and then read a description, in their own words, from Saint Teresa of Avila, Saint John of the Cross, Nisargadata Maharaj or Black Elk, of the same thing. This is a pattern that has happened repeatedly. I have had no formal training and was not raised within any tradition, and yet arrive at the same eternal truths. Apparently, those truths simply exist and are encountered by clearing away attachments and distractions during things like the prayer of quiet or meditation. I believe them to be real.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Loving The Enemy
I went to the movie “Ender’s Game” today and found it to be very enjoyable. The movie went beyond the average character development and a bit further into emotional and spiritual realms than most movies. I do not recall an exact quote, but one of the most important comments to me was that when a person really comes to know and understand an enemy, they also come to love that enemy. So true, whether the enemy is internal, external or both. To me, loving, embracing and respecting an enemy is a necessary part of working with it. Especially when it comes to an internal issue, like my dark side, trying to simply fight it gives it power, rather than overcoming it. Understanding, loving and embracing the issue, allows me to stop acting on it, and, ultimately, lets it dissolve.
Monday, November 4, 2013
Listening
A very pleasant and quiet day. For Maria and myself, the process of preparation for moving involves a lot of clearing out of un-needed items, both physically and emotionally, a sort of cleansing. For the moment, that seems to be done.
During a group I led yesterday, the participants were all compassionate, understanding and respectful of each other. During the group they made an obvious effort to be cooperative and to be of service to each other. According to staff comments and reports, they were not at all like that before or after group. I am reminded of the comments of Remen in My Grandfather’s Blessings, “When you listen, the integrity and wholeness in others moves closer. Your attention strengthens it and makes it easier for them to hear it in themselves. In your presence, they can more easily inhabit that in them which is beyond their limitations, a place of greater freedom and sanctuary. Eventually they may be able to live there.”
During a group I led yesterday, the participants were all compassionate, understanding and respectful of each other. During the group they made an obvious effort to be cooperative and to be of service to each other. According to staff comments and reports, they were not at all like that before or after group. I am reminded of the comments of Remen in My Grandfather’s Blessings, “When you listen, the integrity and wholeness in others moves closer. Your attention strengthens it and makes it easier for them to hear it in themselves. In your presence, they can more easily inhabit that in them which is beyond their limitations, a place of greater freedom and sanctuary. Eventually they may be able to live there.”
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Giving Up Attachments
We took down the lodges today. Actually, other people took part in taking down the lodges while I watched, felt and meditated. I could sense that, as I said in my previous entry, that nothing of any significance was changing, a strange sensation, but also undeniable.
Tonight during my period of prayer and meditation I felt quite a bit more clear, as if I had given up some major attachment. I gather that my attachment was to the physical structures and what they meant to me. As various spiritual teachers have indicated, giving up attachments is a large part of spiritual growth, and the process leads to greater freedom. This was a good example.
Tonight during my period of prayer and meditation I felt quite a bit more clear, as if I had given up some major attachment. I gather that my attachment was to the physical structures and what they meant to me. As various spiritual teachers have indicated, giving up attachments is a large part of spiritual growth, and the process leads to greater freedom. This was a good example.
Timelessness
There have been several times in my life where the events were game or rule changing, meaning times where I could no longer keep doing the things I was accustomed to. For example, when I quit using drugs and alcohol to cope with life or became disabled and could no longer walk, unassisted. This is one of those times, and it is important for me to recognize that. I have been doing sweat-lodges once or twice a week for the last twenty years and that activity, including preparing for them and recovering after them, has absorbed a good part of my life. That is changing. There is also a definite awareness that, in reality, nothing is changing other than the physical activity. An awareness that the spiritual significance of that activity is timeless and does not change. The love, connection and impact on consciousness/awareness does not change.
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