Daily Living

In the church I attend there is a fairly strong Christian “flavor”, not required, but spoken of.  The flavor includes a sense of duty and right and wrong, which, I sense, are man-made concepts that have no spiritual significance.  Spiritually (within love) there is only what is and what is not, without any sort of value judgment.  A sense of duty and right and wrong, along with many other concepts are useful for day-to-day life on this planet, but their value is limited.  They are a valuable part of the human experience.

Staying in the Present

I do better when I keep things simple and just stay in the present, be aware and not try to analyze or understand.  As I say in the book I am publishing, “understanding is not required” and if I try to put my life into a simplistic logical, cause and effect paradigm, my effort tends to take me out of the present.  Just having a sense of gratitude, faith and staying in the present works well for me.

Life & Death

About a week ago I had two biopsies done on possibly cancerous growths/lesions on my back and today I went back to the doctor to check on the healing of the incisions.  I find it notable that I did not even think to ask about the result of the biopsies, in fact I still don’t know and am not concerned, assuming that “the universe is unfolding as it should”.  I doubt that they are cancerous but I also know that my life process is just fine.

Healing Touch

Today I went to the medical intuitive healer that I have been going to for five years and now go to once a month.  He and I both use healing touch, though he is specifically trained and focuses on physical systems, while I focus on love and the energy field.  We seem to compliment and balance each other.  As a result I am doing well physically, which is verified by the medical doctor I go to as well.  I know that the healing touch we each use has a physical impact, in my case.  At this point, there have also been several studies showing that the sort of things we each do have a beneficial effect.  Exactly how healing touch works, I don’t know, but that it does can be demonstrated.

A Meeting

During the day today, as I frequently do, I met with someone and we talked intimately and powerfully.  I could feel our connection and the power of the words spoken, healing and important words which were not mine though I was the one speaking.  I was reminded of the words of deCastillejo when she said "For there to be a meeting, it seems as though a third, a something else, is always present.  You may call it Love, or the Holy Spirit.  Jungian’s would say that it is the presence of the Self.  If this 'Other' is present, there cannot have failed to be a meeting." She went on to say "Great deeds can only be achieved when we are more than our little selves.  When we are lent wings we should not reject them." I cannot say that I understood what took place in any logical, cause-and-effect way, which seems to matter not at all.  It was a delight to be part of that.

Getting Past Defensiveness

Today was another contemplative/meditative day.  Maria and I went to a large cinder cone north of Flagstaff, where I encountered and connected with a very old, peaceful and stable pinion pine.  I sat with the tree, allowing myself to be wrapped in its feeling of strength and peace, which, in turn, allowed me to sort out and finalize my approach to one of my clients.  I needed to get past any reactiveness or defensiveness on my part, and replace those feelings with love, understanding and compassion.

Contemplation

As I commented the last few days, I have been going from one intense interaction to the next, with my main focus on being present, doing the next right thing and going with the flow without attaching or even trying to hold on to anything along the way.  Today I had more time to relax and sort through my previous thoughts and actions, contemplative time.  I find that I really feel the need for that contemplation, without any form of distraction or people, just time to sit and scroll through recent events.