Not In Charge

I used to make an effort, daily, to do God’s will and I also made an effort to be of service.  However, I believed that I had some control over my life, that I was in charge to some degree.  Then, three times now, I have been very close to death, on my knees crying and asking for the necessary strength, guidance and support to simply stay alive, everything else had been stripped away.  I made it clear, at those times, that I would commit my life to spreading love and being of service.  I had no idea how much freedom there was in letting go to the degree I have now.  I believe, that the same lack of being in control or in charge is true of most people, as is the importance of love.