Perseverance

I spent most of the last two days feeling anxious, hopeless and restless, feeling "lost in a trackless desert" and doing a lot of prayer, meditation and quiet contemplation. I would like the process of transition that I am in the midst of to be easy - it is not. It’s time to take action in becoming and establishing "Charlie" in MD. In the process of doing that I need to continue being surrendered and being of service. The process is summarized nicely by Thomas H. Green, S.J.; "The life of prayer is perhaps the most mysterious dimension of all human experience. We come to be at home with a God we cannot see. We discover that it is only by giving ourselves away totally that we truly come to possess ourselves, that we are most free when most surrendered. We begin to realize that light is darkness and darkness light. We become lost in a trackless desert — and then, if we persevere despite our disorientation, we begin to realize that it is only being lost, in losing ourselves, that we are found. The whole of our life and not just our prayer life, becomes a paradox, an apparent contradiction concealing and revealing a deeper truth, because we begin to realize that we must live as we pray." Simple, but not easy and, as I said a few days ago, I will persevere.