I realized today, that I am losing touch with the drama of the human experience. Because of my connection with God, I inhabit a world of love, peace, connectedness and compassion. It is an absolute world so there is no corresponding apathy, hate, fear, feeling of chaos or loneliness, it is a bit strange. The drama that has been present most of my life is gone, other than in memory, and occasional lapses, which keep me alert. I still also hear the chatter of my brain at times, but for the most part I enjoy doing nothing, as I did yesterday.
In addition to enjoying being quiet, doing nothing and simply feeling at peace, there are many related benefits. For example, I feel little or no need to prove myself or justify my actions, I am content being Charlie. Another example is that I am preparing to lead a retreat and I passionately want people to grow as a result, but what form that takes makes little difference. The retreat could simply stir up negative thoughts, resulting in them resenting me and ultimately the retreat would still lead to their growth. A third example is that my future path is totally up in the air and I am good with that. Understanding is not required!
