Holistic Healing

I am working on self-healing of my disability and it is a complex issue with a mixture of layers of self-interest, karma and God’s will (some sort of universal plan or effects).  I have been dealing with each of them every night when I get up in the middle of the night.  I want to point out that I have healed many things in the past and found them to be relatively simple and straightforward but not this time.  For the last several nights I have been negotiating about God’s will and my impact on other people and spirits.  It is apparent that my physical condition or healing has an impact on others (and myself!) that will change with healing and I need to consider that.  Of course, I could also be imagining this whole thing — but I think not.