I feel and act out of love daily if I am in decent emotional and spiritual condition which requires self-care and introspection. I also have as part of me a selfish and fearful side, which does not get expressed and usually is not even felt. Yesterday the comments of other people on Zoom reminded me that I feel that part when I’m not taking care of myself. I grew up feeling and expressing that part since it was all I knew. I did not enjoy feeling that way and nether did the people around me. My recovery has shown me a more loving and spiritual approach to life which I much prefer.
