I find my current way of looking at the world/reality difficult to get used to ... at times ... and wonderful at other times. Some time ago I made a switch during deep meditation where I could sense love, peace eternity and what I call God.. I also realized the feeling was the same as during my near-death-experience. I use the power of that feeling for my own self healing. I have also used that feeling/power in my healing work with other people and spirits. I find that I can generate and project that feeling/power in working with others ... but only by allowing it, not reasoning, wishing or forcing. For that I need a feeling of inner peace and love. I now feel that way most of the time. My reality has shifted.