Connection

A busy day, during which I had the opportunity to interact with several people.  During the day, I was very aware of forming connections, and then having accurate, meaningful communication.  I was able to do that quite well with my three clients and then with several people at a recovery meeting, very nice.  I then went to see my dentist, later in the day.  That experience gave me an interesting contrast since I made a good connection with the hygienist but was completely blocked from doing so with the dentist.  He was very wrapped up in himself, performing his function and had no interest in connection.  It was an excellent reminder of the way I used to be.

Compassionate Understanding

Today, a young person of perhaps fifteen, one of our neighbor boys, asked if I would like to buy a discount booklet.  I just said “no thank you” without asking for more information, or being the least bit social, though I was at least smiling.  The fact is that I was uncomfortable because of my speech impediment and poor communication skills.  I was civil, but overly abrupt.  I have encountered the same sort of reaction from other disabled people and struggle to not take such interactions personally.  I strive to do better in my own interactions but I also need to be compassionate and understanding about the struggles of others.

The Utility Of Spirituality, Love & Connection

I work as a mental health therapist with people who have addiction problems of one sort or another, primarily drugs and/or alcohol.  In order to help them stay clean and sober, I generally emphasize the importance of spirituality, love and  connections, factors that are frequently missing from their lives.  It often makes me sad that these things are largely absent from their lives.  Like me, they turned to drugs and/or alcohol, in part,  to make up for that lack and, as in my case, addiction followed.  I suspect that focusing on the cultural development of spirituality, love and  connection would be a more useful method of “fighting the war on drugs”, than is punishment or imprisonment, addressing the causes rather than symptoms.

A Call For Balance

This morning I am very aware that, as a species, we have many attitudes and ideas that are leading us toward survival problems.  Things like the way we treat each other or the earth are obvious examples.  But also subtler things like the exclusive belief in and emphasis on science is another example.  A large number of those problems could be solved or influenced by bringing ideas like the importance of love and spirituality back into our lives., not to the exclusion of other approaches, but in addition to them.

Feelings Pass

This morning, I feel cynical, which is unusual but I suspect just fine.  I keep talking about being loving and positive and today that feels like a waste of time and energy.  The feeling is a bit surprising to me, since I can see the positive effects of my approach all around me, but I still feel cynical.  Like all feelings, I suspect it best to experience it and let it pass.
I went to a Friend’s (Quaker) meeting today and the main topics were the emotionally healing impact of love on various interactions and the importance of talking about it.  Just what I needed to hear!  I was moved and also was able to talk about my feeling of cynicism, very cleansing.  I now feel more positive and motivated.

Listening to Plants

It’s the rainy season in Flagstaff and it is wonderful to feel the moisture in the air and the vibrant growth of the plants and animals this time of the year.  All of the seasons have their special gifts and the native plants and animals are all adapted to the rhythm.  It always impresses me to see and feel the plants shut down during the dry months, then explode with growth and flowers when the rains begin.  The flow of the seasons and the changes of conditions with shifts in  altitude are quite magnificent in this state.

Seeking Guidance

I filter through the events of today looking for something to come to the surface, to feel some sort of inspiration and nothing does.  It was a good day, just fairly quiet, normal and not inspirational.  I can accept that.  I realize that I spend most of my day seeking guidance and attempting to act on that guidance by being attentive to my intuition and what feels right.  My current approach is true to me and quite different from my past approach of trying to please other people.

Limited But Vital

As I commented yesterday, the events in life have very little meaning in and of themselves.  However, as many others have pointed out, the purpose of life is to grow in our ability to feel, give and receive love.  Those events are how we experience that growth and, in that way, those “trivial” events are vital.  I have found it important to fully experience and value those events, without grasping or pushing them away, to honor their importance for my path.  Because of their transience, I view the events as limited but because they teach us about love, I view them as vital.

Transience

A quiet day with some exercise, meditating and a lot of cooking.  I also had one client and a good talk with Maria.
One topic that came up a lot is the transient nature of most worldly things and that those things mean relatively little in an eternal sense.  In the past I have placed importance on many things that now seem trivial but not unreal.  I have read the comments by various spiritual leaders that often refer to the worldly events as unreal, to me, they are not unreal just very limited.  We are experiencing existence and those events in order to grow in love.  The events, in themselves, have very little meaning.  The love does not and in that way, the events have value.

Increasing Awareness

I went to the movie “Lucy” today, very enjoyable, and the movie also had some significant points, either by implication or direct statements.  Several points revolved around the fact that we only use a very small portion of our brain’s capacity and what might happen if we used more.  I found myself “welling up” with tears several times because of the truths contained in the movie.  One point made in the movie which I have found to be true is that as a person gains awareness, the attachments and desires that “make us human” tend to fall away as those thing take on less importance.  Other points that were implied during the movie that I have also realized are the importance of relationships, love and being of service.