Walking With God

I walk with that force that I call God all day, every day, meaning I conduct my activities according to the guidance I receive from inspiration and intuition.  That is most obvious when working with clients, but also includes mundane activities like buying kitchen appliances or getting car work done.  In each case, conducting my life this way involves setting my self-centered, fear based ego aside and listening intensely for guidance.  The process is quite different from the linear, cause and effect, self-willed method I used to use.  The most obvious difference is that it is always other or service directed.  My assumption is that in the process I will get my needs met.

The Impact Of Love

The most important event of the day was a meeting of the men’s group this evening.  I both lead and participate in the group.  The group of up to ten of us, all in the recovery process, is focused on the spiritual and emotional growth of each member, within an atmosphere of love.  I consider it to be quite an honor to be part of the group and keep the group on course.  I find it energizing to watch and be a part of the impact of love and support on each of the members.

Love, Faith & Hope

The topic that has kept coming up recently is the power of our own stories or belief systems to hold us back from potential growth or changes in perspective.  In my case, I have had to overcome notions of self-deprecation and then anger in order to move forward.  They were beliefs about who I was, based on childhood experiences.  My current struggle is to be free to become much more than I ever thought possible.  My tendency is to hold myself back.  In each case, I have used an atmosphere of love, faith and hope in order to move forward, which is what I am using now.

Simple & Loving

The theme for today seems to be that doing the “right” thing in life, the action which is loving and will increase the integrity of the universe, is really very simple.  Doing the right thing is a matter of setting the fearful ego aside, listening and then taking action accordingly.  It is clear that the fearful, defensive and hurt ego, complicates things, making it difficult to listen.  The answers are there.

Perspective

Maria and I went to a spot near Sunset Crater that overlooks the Painted Desert this afternoon, peaceful, solid and very enduring.  This morning we attended a Friends meeting, also having the feelings of being peaceful, solid and very enduring.  Both contrast markedly with the disturbed feelings I spoke of yesterday and put those feelings in perspective for me.  The fact is that humanity is learning and growing and, like a young growing puppy, humanity will do some harmful things.  The universe was telling me that everything is and will be just fine, regardless of the choices humans make or the outcomes that follow.  As Ehrmann said “whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.”

Our Path

I was talking about my concerns today, which alleviates the situation some, however I cannot shake being disturbed about the direction much of humanity is going.  There are many ways in which we are harming each other or the earth, usually with some sort of short term gain in mind, without regard to long-term consequences.  As I mentioned today, the harmful actions are taken, while each of us also realize the “right” path, the loving and respectful action that will increase the integrity of the universe.  There are certainly pockets of people being careful to take the loving and respectful path and I will continue doing everything I can.

Perspective

When I work with someone, the aspects I focus on are the progress and the presence of attitudes and awarenesses that were not there before.  For example, I tend to focus on the development of love, understanding and compassion, together with the action of doing more service work.  My approach is very love and strength based.  On the other hand, some other people notice what is missing, behaviors and attitudes that have still not developed.  For example, the same person might still be relatively entitled, self-centered and lazy.  Both views are totally accurate and valid.  My preference is obvious.

Integrity

Today, I was talking with a fellow recovering person about integrity, a subject and way of life that is very important to me.  I watch other recovering people and note that they will say nice words, especially during our meetings, and then behave differently.  It is important to me that I “walk my talk”, in and out of meetings and when noone is looking.  One of the points I made today is that integrity also means that if something does not fit in my life, is not honest and love based, I do not participate in it.  This sounds easy and simple when I write about it, but I do not find it so.  I also get consequences, the most common is being told that I am not a “team player”.

Rooted In Love

I lead a fairly busy life, often going rapidly from one thing to another through much of the day.  During the day I find that I need to pause periodically and remind myself of the importance of things like God, love, compassion & understanding, remind myself to “be”, not just “do”.  I depend on the quiet time of prayer and meditation each morning to keep me firmly rooted in the importance of things like God, love, compassion & understanding.  Without that special time, I tend to lose track and my day does not flow as smoothly.  Unfortunately, I find it easy, even compelling, to become a “human doing”.

Healing Hands

This afternoon I was performing a healing on Maria’s eyes and I started to heat up even more than usual, very much the same as recently when I do self-healing in the morning.  I found it necessary to take my shirt off, in order to avoid over-heating and the subsequent session was very strong.  There was an intense feeling of the healing power of God/love passing through me and I found the session (perhaps ten minutes) to be exhausting.  The process felt like I was accessing or allowing a power that I had not before, that I was using a part of my brain/heart/soul which had not been used before.