Allowing

Today, I was doing some hands-on healing with Maria, my wife, and I began to, spontaneously, slip into the unconsciousness of zoning or deep meditation at the same time.  After beginning to do that for, perhaps, fifteen seconds, I backed off abruptly and took my hands away.  The reason I stopped is that I had instantly become scared of two things; the loss of conscious control and the amount of power that I sensed there.  I hope to do more of the same thing, without stopping, in the future.  However, the action is one of those things that I can allow to happen but not will it.  Meaning that I can set up the conditions and form the intent, but the outcome is not up to me.