Forgiveness

Within my healing journey, I needed to forgive two main people.  One of those people was myself for being self-destructive, hurting many others, turning away from God and being angry.  The second main person was my father for having beaten me and, in general, exposing me to his anger and rage as I was growing.  I went through many complex feelings and realizations on my journey to forgiveness, and finally letting go of these anchors that were holding me back,
arriving at acceptance and forgiveness.  I then began to receive many gifts from God, one of which was going to visit my father, shortly before he died.  During that visit, he had advanced Alzheimer’s so did not know who I was and could not speak, cogently, we had long, deep communications and there was none of the past for either of us.  We were both transported through love, quite amazing.  Because of that visit, the gifts I received and my own meditation, I realized that within the love of the Absolute, the God place, there was nothing to forgive, only the love of the absolute.

Spring

I certainly realize that in human terms it is still February and the middle of winter, but the plants and animals are demonstrating behaviors that I associate with spring.  When I connect with the plants and animals, I can feel their vibrancy.  The plants are quietly exhibiting waking up to the presence of a period of new growth.  The birds are more active, chasing each other around, in their bright spring plumage and singing their spring songs.  Personally, I consider this time of year to be very enjoyable, full of the promise of things to come.
Additionally, I notice, that though it has been a very dry winter in Flagstaff, so far,  rather than fretting about the dryness, the plants and animals just accept the reality and continue with life, a good model for me to follow.

Our Energy Field

A couple of days ago I was talking with someone about the existence and uses of the energy fields around each of us and that connects us to each other.  My comment to her was that “I use it daily!”, which is quite true.  The two main ways that I use it are to further my connecting /interacting with clients and doing physical healing work.  I know of no large formal studies which definitively show either the existence or uses of such a field, which, personally, does not disturb me since there are numerous smaller or anecdotal studies and people have been using the field for thousands of years.  I suspect that the western “scientific” approach will catch on, eventually.

Connection

Since I now know that I am truly connected to everything and everybody, being respectful of everything on earth has become very important to me.  I make an effort to be of service to my fellow humans while adopting a “do as little harm as possible to my environment”, being mindful of my impact on the earth.  I feel a strong love for everything and everybody since we are all part of each other and part of God.  I would certainly like to see more love and respect in the world, rather than the emphasis current emphasis on individuality, competition and capitalist ideals.  To that end, I can “be the change” I would like to see in the world.

Being Of Service

A while back, shortly after our move into town, I joked to a friend that by moving into a small, plane, normal house in town, I could “make believe that I was mainstream”.  The fact is that by making such a move, I am more accessible to be of service to others.  I am reminded of a comment from the book Way of the Peaceful Warrior a Book that Changes Lives by Dan Millman; “You will live an ordinary life, learning how to remain ordinary in a troubled world to which, in a sense, you no longer belong.  Remain ordinary, and you can be useful to others.”  I suspect that being more accessible and useful is an important aspect of our move.

Healing

A month or so ago, I began to focus part of my morning healing exercises on my thyroid since it has been “underperforming” for years.  Since then, I have been using the same hands on healing techniques that I describe elsewhere in my journal and in my website, every morning.  Coincident with my efforts, my doctor noted that my blood work began to indicate that “my pituitary thinks that my thyroid does not need stimulation”, meaning my pituitary is producing less thyroid stimulating hormone (TSH).  I will continue to use the same visualizations and healing techniques and see where this goes!

Journaling

I write and talk about many strange and wonderful things, primarily things that have either happened directly to me, or, at least caused me to think differently, such as the things I wrote about yesterday.  In part, I write about these things because writing helps me sort things out. Journaling assists my own growth.  In part, I write and talk to be of service to others.  My hope is that my journaling will alter the view or understanding of one or more other people and help in their growth process.

Miracles

Personally, I have experienced several events that would typically be called “miracles”, but simply demonstrate parts of  reality that I do not understand.  Events such as non-surgical healings of things that would normally require surgery or would not be expected at all, physical occurrences that could not have happened or communication that could not have taken place.  As M. Williamson says “I didn’t know that a miracle is just a shift in perception”.  In many cases, I did not believe these events as they occurred, and still have difficulty believing that they took place.  However, I have come to realize that they were simply events beyond my understanding, beyond what I thought possible.

Change

For sone reason, which is not clear to me, I feel that there is some sort of large, societal change going on, a change in awareness.  My sense is that this change has been going on for a long time, is, perhaps, accelerating and today I am just more acutely aware of it.  For some people, there is a greater reliance on intellect, technology and science.  For others, there is a realization that things like intellect, technology and science will only provide us with a partial picture, that there is a great deal more to the “reality” which surrounds us and that we operate within.  The two approaches conflict.  In my life, I have realized that intellect, technology and science will only go so far and I wish to go further.

Forgiveness

This evening, I found myself commenting, something I talk about in my website, that in the Absolute, with God, “there is no forgiveness since there is nothing to forgive”.  We are accustomed to dualities like right and wrong or harmless and harmful, and in those cases there is something to forgive.  Those concepts exist in the transient “reality” of the physical plane.  Within the Absolute, with God, there is no duality or dichotomy, there is only love, so there is nothing to forgive, all exists and is supported within love., the origin and meaning of unconditional love.  For me, that knowing, that realization,  results in a profound difference in the way I feel each day and choose to conduct my life.