Healing Touch

Today I worked with a person using healing touch and the power of unconditional love, a wonderful experience for them and me.  I thought of my comment yesterday about my desire to “not let science hold me back”.  I have a Ph.D. in biology, giving me a scientific background, and, as a result, I really admire and enjoy the efficacy of scientific investigation.  It is also important for me to realize that science is limited.  For example, in this case, science can establish that healing touch works, but it cannot explain how or illuminate the importance of unconditional love in the healing process.  I still use it daily.

Attitude

I went to another workshop today.  This workshop was on “The Habits Of Happy People” and, as usual, I found it pleasing to hear people talk about the physical impact and importance of things like attitude, resiliency factors and meditation, things that I learned about and have been using for years.  I realize that the scientific community and I are just scratching the surface and that many others have known about the importance of these activities for centuries.  I will continue to explore and not let science hold me back, also realizing its importance.

Obsessing

Tonight at my recovery meeting I spoke about my experience with my tendency to obsess about events in my life.  Earlier today I went into obsession about the book I am in the process of publishing and promoting.  Basically, the process was not going according to my plan and I was obsessing about potential actions and things I could say to make everything fit my plan.  In this case, my obsessing only lasted 1 & ½ or 2 hours, pretty good since obsessing and efforts to control used to occupy my thoughts.  What I did was begin meditating, asking myself “how important is it” and feeling the peace and love of knowing that everything was just fine.

Acting In A Sacred Manner

It is clear to me that all the activities in my life should be done in what various native people would call a “sacred manner”.  Meaning to constantly be aware that all of my actions effect or “feed” the eternal part of me and that everything I do is connected to the rest of the world.  That sounds daunting but it really just means to act out of love and respect for all things, or to honor myself and my position on this earth.  Within that approach it is certainly possible to enjoy and take pleasure in the various distractions provided by wealth and technology but not place much importance on those things.

Love-based Living

A central purpose of the book I just wrote & published is as a guide to help people live and identify with the eternal, love-based part inside each of them, which I mentioned yesterday. As I say in the book, it is being “in the world but not of it”, meaning not identifying with the capitalistic, competitive, individualistic or fear-based part of each of us.  The love-based approach has certainly changed my life.  In the book I outline many of the activities I use daily to keep me on that path, actions that I also describe in this blog.

Perspective

I realized tonight that when I identified with my ego, I was fearful of the pending, potential changes in my life.  However, when I identified with my soul or essence, I knew everything was just fine and I felt a sense of peace flow through me.  My ego is oriented at earthly matters and fear-based while my essence is eternal and love-based, quite a difference.  I think it’s a good idea for me to stay firmly rooted in love and my soul or essence!

Holistic Healing

I was diagnosed with a chronic, degenerative, neurological disorder back in 1988 & told that I would never get better and continue to get worse.  Since then, I have gotten quite a bit better, which has been documented and observed by neurologists.  It appears that my improvement has been due to the use of meditative techniques that scientists are now realizing the efficacy of.  Physiologically, my problems are caused by deficiencies in various proteins in the cerebellum of the brain.  These proteins are being studied by the medical profession.  The medical profession may now be developing medications that could alleviate my symptoms.  It is best for me to continue using the meditative techniques and the more standard medication route.

Dealing With Feelings

We had our monthly men’s meeting tonight and I talked about my book and showed them the initial copy.  I explained that I was terrified because of “putting myself out there” and the potentially life changing event of publishing.  I also spoke of the extreme sense of gratitude I had because of the whole journey.  I found myself repeating several times that “feelings are not rational”, especially with regards to the fear.  It was good to talk about the process and the associated feelings.

Clarity

I have set in place the necessary steps to begin the process of promotion of my book.  There is a lot of power in that little book and it means a great deal to me.  For those reasons I am asking for guidance and proceeding slowly, meaning I do not act until I get a feeling of clarity.  Basically I use the three questions that are the central focus of the book (Would I do this in front of God?; Is it really my responsibility?; Will this increase the integrity of the universe?) and take action accordingly.  It’s a process I have used for some time and it works for me.

Guidance

As I indicated yesterday, I generally get guidance for that day.  Today that guidance was to stay present and listen, meaning to pay attention to messages/nudges from spirit or intuition.  I had no clients today so in addition to daily activities like exercise and paying bills, I had numerous periods of meditation or contemplation.  As part of that I have been led to begin re-reading Black Elk Speaks.