The River of Change

These last several days I have been very aware of what was said in a Hopi prophesy out of Oraibi many years ago; "There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold onto the shore. They will feel they are being torn apart, and they will suffer greatly. Know the river has its destination." In my case "holding on to the shore" means being attached to conditions as they are and resisting change rather than going with the flow. Holding on causes stress.

Change

As part of my preparation for moving, a possibility which now seems a certainty, I have told several people that I love them and will miss them. I have also realized that, having given and shown them the importance of love and spirituality, it may be time for them to develop on their own. If they make that choice they may actually become stronger in my absence. The thought that occurred to me earlier today was "take what you have learned from me and run with it". Many years ago I was inspired by several people, I changed toward love and then passed it on, now it is their turn to do the same.

Trust In The Process 2

On the one hand, I watch my life go by with a sense of wonder, enjoyment, laughter at my silliness and the realization that everything is unfolding just fine. Fortunately those ideas predominate. On the other hand I am aware that my brain fabricates whispers of worries about money and various other logistics. As long as I pray, meditate, listen, stay humble and act accordingly, everything works out amazingly well.

Trusting The Process

Events are unfolding that support Maria’s & my notion of moving back east for health reasons and to be of service, primarily to carry the messages of love and spirituality. For example; we wanted to sell our truck & we now have five people that want to buy it, we needed to sell our house and a couple approached us wanting to buy it and it has now become clear that we are to move to MD near Maria’s mother. I have also been concerned about finances and it turns out that her siblings may help, if necessary. The message I get when I meditate is to pay attention, trust my intuition, be grateful and continue to float down the river of life.

Life And Change

I have a very strong tendency to view the coming changes and move as potential chores or duties, like going against the current of the river of my life. In fact, much of my life has felt like a chore or challenge. It is best for me to realize that my own internal conflicts were the reason that my life was a challenge and that overcoming those conflicts was my growth. If I let go of those conflicts the coming changes and move become adventures that are exciting and fun. I just need to pay attention, be grateful and float down the river, enjoying the scenery.

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is part of the way of life that I am promoting. I have been wrongly treated many times in my life and I don’t want anyone to feel the way I felt at those times. Part of me wanted revenge but I have also come to realize that "hate and anger corrode the container they are in", so in order to attain relief I needed to move toward love and peace, not violence. It has helped me to realize that people don’t hurt other people unless they have been hurt themselves. It has also helped to realize that we all contain a God/love seed or part and we can learn to act from that part. Acting out of love feels a lot better than acting out of anger.

Power Of Love 2

Because of the facts I spoke of yesterday, I am promoting a way of life that emphasizes the importance and roles of spirituality and love. In my case I changed my focus from worldly things to spirituality and love with the result of greater fulfillment and changes in the way I treat other people and things, which is why I wrote my book. As I indicated yesterday, a focus of love impacts on what we know as reality. It now seems likely that I will be promoting that way of life back east around D.C. and MD where the emphasis is very different, and that makes me uneasy.

Power Of Love

I am very much aware that I need guidance to sort out and then put into words what is really going on in day to day life. Initially I learned about the power and importance of love through my own meditation, the comments of various spiritual leaders such as Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj and similar comments of early mystics and religious leaders. More recently I learn of the same attitudes and ideas through quantum physics. It is quite apparent that various forms of energy such as love or fear underlie what we consider to be physical reality, what Conrow Coelho calls "the plenum taking form". Long standing spiritual beliefs and now science are saying the same thing, that the underlying energy impacts what we know as reality.

Split Wood, Carry Water

Today was a "split wood, carry water" sort of a day, meaning I just carried out the daily tasks that were in front of me. I did my exercises, went to a recovery meeting, did a lot of necessary paperwork, did some weeding and took a nap in the middle of the day. I was very aware of some discomfort due to being in transition regarding much of my life and some depression and sadness from grieving my sister’s recent death. For me it is a time of doing the next right thing, plodding forward.

Forgiveness 2

When I commented yesterday that from an eternal perspective there was nothing to forgive, what I meant was that looking at life through the lens of unconditional love the hurtful, destructive and negative actions we do are a part of our growing towards love. From a human perspective, the act of forgiveness is very important. In my case my father beat me and expressed his rage toward me as a child. As an adult I went through a lengthy and very important process of becoming aware of the impact of his anger on me and finally forgiveness, realizing that he did the best he could. On my last visit with him I felt only love and, from within that love, I realized that there was no need for forgiveness.