Chaos

I felt impatient and judgmental for much of the day today, a feeling that has come over me periodically since our move back east about a year ago. It’s a feeling that results from my life being chaotic and unpredictable and my attempts at controlling and stabilizing rather than simply accepting the way it is. As I commented tonight at dinner, "I’m better off just being amused by the process". For today trivial bits of chaos bothered me like the hot pads not being in the right location when fixing dinner. I did not blow up - but it bothered me. Being at peace in the presence of chaos is still a challenge for me - laughter helps.