Pure Love

As far as I can tell, there is only one kind of love, a strong feeling of an intense willingness and desire to exert oneself for someone else’s spiritual and emotional growth or welfare.  That love comes from the force/power known as God.  In its pure form love is totally selfless and totally directed at the growth and welfare of the other entity.  I feel it all the time for everything and everyone else and I also feel it directed at me, most powerfully from God but also from everything and everyone, since we are all connected and all of us have a portion of that power/force within us.  I find it to be quite amazing to live my life so immersed and surrounded by love.
In my past, love was mixed up with fear and co-dependency, not totally selfless and experienced as feelings of infatuation, being “in love” and lust.  There is nothing at all wrong with those feelings, they are fun and intense to experience, they are simply not purely love.  For example, when my wife and I met, thirty-two years ago, there were strong feelings of being in love and the lust that, in my case, comes with a touch of fear mixed with love.  It was very human and wonderful to experience those feelings.  We have now been married for thirty one years and we feel an enduring love for each other, also wonderful to experience.

A Day of Connection and Love

A day of connection and love.  I worked with several individual clients and one family today, using the guidance I received plus my own intuition.  I felt very much like a simple conduit, a tool responding to outside forces.  My job was to remain neutral, love the people I was working with at that moment, listen and take action according to input from the people at one end and God at the other.  I was in the middle, responding to both sides.  As long as I stay neutral and keep my own ego out of it, the results are quite magical and totally enjoyable, for everyone.
The people and family I worked with are all at different stages of their own growth.  One of the clients and his family are preparing to move on to the next stage of recovery, so I have to keep in mind that my job is to make myself obsolete.  One of the others is at the beginning of his journey with me and with him I need to keep in mind that I am just a part of that journey.  The others are in between.  All in all, a very fulfilling mixture!

Rising Early

At my recovery meeting tonight the speaker spoke of waking at 1:00 AM, unintentionally, and the benefits of the “quiet time” during the early morning hours.  I spoke with him after the meeting and let him know that I get out of bed between 1:30 and 2:00 AM intentionally and referred to it as “magic time”.  The fact is that the hours between 2:00 and 6:00 are my time to be with God, to pray and meditate.  For some reason, during this time each day, I can focus on and immerse myself in the feeling of love, I know to be God.  I also receive guidance and directions for working with the people and families during the coming day.
For me the procedure of waking up early and asking for guidance during the morning hours, began many years ago, when I was still working full time.  At that time, I would awaken at 5:00 AM and also take a break from my early morning routine on the weekends.  In 2005 I began partial retirement, due to my disability and age.  The time of my arising kept getting earlier after partial retirement.  The time has been at 1:30-2:00 for a couple of years now and I have stopped taking breaks on weekends, I do it every day.  I set no alarm and look forward to it.

The Power of Conventional and Holistic Activity

A good solid day of exercise and household activities and, as always, a good deal of prayer, meditation and contemplation.  I am impressed by how much my balance, strength, coordination and endurance have improved over the years, especially considering the various predictions of the doctors.
My progress has required a lot of discipline, perseverance, love and healing visualizations, a very powerful combination of holistic and conventional activities.  I have wondered which activity was the most important, but I think it best to just let that go.  The fact is using that combination, I have overcome a number of “incurable” conditions or conditions that would normally require surgery.  I have also shown the techniques to others, with similar results.

Life's Riches

The comment I made the other day about having very little “by American standards”, has been on my mind, since by world standards, I have a great deal.  I do have a house, some land, a ten year old car, good food, plenty of water, enough income, some furniture, an oldish computer, etc.  My point is, that stuff is a great deal more than I need and not at all necessary for my happiness.  I enjoy having that stuff but if it were not there my life would be different, at least on the surface, and I would be fine, even with my physical challenges and advancing age.  I can envision living in a trailer in the desert, being dead or having others in my “tribe” taking care of me and not being physically able, either would be fine with me.  In any case, my life would have the richness I gave it.

Increasing the Love

The father of a very close friend of mine almost died, was unconscious and on life support for several days.  People who were close to the father, or had been, came to his bedside from all over the world to be close and express their love for him.  The father then regained consciousness and is experiencing some degree of recovery.  In my case I also almost died a while back resulting in a great deal of love expressed and felt by the local recovery community and several others around the country whose lives I had touched.  Each instance served to increase the amount of love in the world, going along with the idea that the purpose of life is to “learn to give and receive love (Mother Teresa).

Feeling of Harmony

At my recovery meeting today the topic was “fear of economic insecurity”, and, more broadly, just fear of the loss of material things.  It was pretty widely acknowledged that the more material possessions and wealth a person has, the greater the fear of loss as well.  That pattern has certainly been true in my life and my way of verbalizing it was that “my possessions owned me”. At this point in my life and having been close to death more than once, I own very little, by American standards, and my future is not secure, yet I am at peace and enjoy my life.  I have a very strong connection with God and connection with the world around me every day.  I live within a bubble of love and feel that everything in my life is, and will be in total harmony, as long as I continue with my focus on those connections.

Going With The Flow

For the last several days. I have been re-learning a lesson that I have learned many times.  On this occasion I had my own tiredness and the trees expressing things to me like “it is what it is”, meaning just accept reality and don’t fight it or try to change it.  In my case I felt tired and like I was taking on too many challenges, while life kept presenting those challenges to me.  Then I had a light week, so I took it easy, thinking that was needed.  The rest did not help, meaning I felt just as tired and resistant to the challenges in life.  So I listened to the trees (so much for being superior!) and just accepted my challenges.  I felt instantly refreshed, and continue to as long as I focus on not resisting the flow of my life.

Connecting With a Tree

Today I spent some time connecting with and communicating with the large pinion pine just east of our home, a wonderfully peaceful experience.  I generally begin the process by telepathically greeting the plant or animal, projecting a feeling of love, telling it it’s wonderful, clearing my mind and then just listening.  The tree had a very simple, stable sort of consciousness/presence which it expressed through feelings, and I then attached my words to its feeling.  For example, I communicated my concern about moving to a lush environment and experiencing chaos rather than peace when connecting to the trees, similar to the way I feel in a large gathering of people, like at a party.  What came back from the tree was a feeling that I immediately interpreted as “don’t make us something we are not”, meaning that trees are not like people and that I will always find connecting with the trees and the outdoors in general to be a peaceful experience.  Simple and reassuring.

Love for All Things

I watched a movie called “Bless Me, Ultima” and in it the woman, Ultima, is a curandera or medicine woman.  I was struck by the realistic portrayal of love within the movie.  The love depicted was the love for our fellow men and all living things rather than the frilly, often transient, romantic love usually depicted in movies.  In the movie, she is very loving, though not always popular and the love shown in the movie is sometimes hard.  Ultima goes out of her way to be of service to others, and always acts lovingly, even when shunned.  Her love in the movie came from her strong belief in God and knowing that we are connected to everything and everyone.
In my own life I have found much the same, though right now I am surrounded by overwhelming approval and support, which is wonderful.  Always feeling and living within the selfless love that comes from God is not easy or frilly, it requires a strong commitment, focus and constant maintenance.  The result is a very fulfilling life that touches many people, well worth it.