Being Worthy

I often wonder at the fact that I have been gifted with the experiences and knowings that have come my way.  I no longer have the tendency toward self-hatred or the self-deprecation that I developed early in life, so I do not constantly feel unworthy of the gifts.  On the other hand, I do not consider myself to be special either.  I am Charlie.  I simply kept emotionally and physically turning away from things like material possessions, co-dependency and the relatively hollow, transient experiences of this world while turning toward things like love, connection and the eternal, things that most people associate with God.  As a result, I now lead a very fulfilling life and have many miraculous and magical experiences.