Anxiousness Of The Mind

Today was like a very clear affirmation of what I wrote yesterday, meaning I kept drifting off into the fear and anxiousness of my thoughts and had to remind myself, repeatedly, of the peace of the Self and the deeper reality of the absolute.  The contrast in the way each of them felt was quite remarkable.  Last night I woke up ruminating and anxious over my thoughts, then I would begin focusing on “I am” and peacefully go back to sleep.  It felt totally pointless to ask myself why I was doing that, it was, quite simply, what was.  Today was another good reminder of my humanity, and that I am not as far along my spiritual path as I would like.