Being Social

This was a day of sharp contrasts for me. I had some experiences with individuals or very small groups of about five where I was able to connect with the people, truly enjoyed the experience and even found it invigorating. I love the feeling of connecting with others on a trusting, feeling and empathic level. I also had the experience of being in several groups of twenty or more, which I was able to tolerate and recognize the experience as part of the human condition. I am very sensitive to the energy around me and in the larger groups people are generally superficial, posturing and fearful of the impression they are making. Personal connection is difficult or impossible. As a result, I love being with people, but I am not social.