Struggling

Tonight I am struggling to believe that I truly am the person I want to be, that within humility, love and God that I’m as powerful as I seem. While doing the healing, connecting, working with spirits or working with people I have no doubts - I just do it. It’s during the quiet in between times that the doubts come up. That’s when my brain attacks me. I recall the words of Williamson that "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." It’s time to sort through my doubts in meditation.