Human Nature

Tonight I keep thinking back to the movie Wonder Woman and her words after her opponent pointed out that humans were self-centered, selfish, aggressive and not worthy of her concern, protection or attention. Her response was to say basically "yes they are — but they are also so much more". We/they are. As in my case, we are quite capable of being loving and other-directed. I am committed to the growth and well being of my brothers and sisters on this planet and I know many others who feel the same. We, unquestionably, have our negative sides but we also have a positive side. We just need to nourish it.

On The Cross

Today, in the monthly meeting of our spiritual reading group, we were talking about "living on the cross", the suffering and the death of our own ego selves as we turn ourselves over to the will of God. As I mentioned, I do not experience suffering from carrying out difficult ministries or turning my life and will over to the care of God. Anyone looking at the physical reality of my life would think I was suffering. I do not. I do feel the " peace, Love and joy I find there", which I spoke of yesterday. As St. John of the Cross said of touches " The delights they engender more than compensate for all the trials suffered in life, even though innumerable"

Connection

I have a very close connection with God and I rely on that connection with the peace, Love and joy I find there to carry me through each day. Most of the activities in any day are difficult and challenging for me but I usually do not notice that because of that peace, Love and joy I feel. In order to cultivate and maintain that connection I spend a good part of each day in prayer and meditation. So far, I have not experienced any spiritually "dry" times when I do not feel that connection for which I am very grateful. "Immersion in God entails a being filled with Him, a divine inflowing. Biblical men knew well enough that this self-communication of God is the sole destiny of men." (Thomas Dubay, S. M.)

What Matters

We got a second opinion and analysis of the problem with our car and it was different from the first, but similar in that it was concluded that the engine was worn out. We can either replace the engine or get a new car. Given the age of the car (16 years), a newer engine is a bad idea. This will be expensive but it is also just a material thing. I am reminded of the words of Richard Pries from years ago that "Nothing matters very much and very few things matter at all". Buying a new is car not a matter of love or relationship, has no eternal significance and will matter little when I am on my death bed.

Focus

Today, in contrast to yesterday, I did well at maintaining my focus on "God, Love, healing and recovery" during my various activities. The difference between yesterday and today made me think of the comment by Gilbert Kilpack, that "one must travel much in the dark and be greatly sifted and tossed about is an inevitable step in the way of spiritual growth." During my exercise this morning I was able to keep focus on healing and harmony with the earth. Later in the day, during meditation, unlike yesterday, I kept my brain on "God, Love, healing and recovery" rather tan revisiting my monkey mind. Scattered through the day I was able to deal with the same car stuff I mentioned yesterday, without giving it much importance, reminding me of the comment by Thomas Dubay, S. M., that "A person is able to attend to the indwelling Trinity and yet carry on the ordinary business of daily life." I also relaxed for a while with an inspirational movie about a woman, love and her dog. It was a good day.

Meditation

Tonight I have been having difficulty keeping my focus on God, Love, healing and recovery during my meditation. My brain keeps drifting off into current events of my life and I keep noticing the wandering, not judging it and bringing my focus back. The current event that I am having trouble with is the situation with my car. We are not sure at this point but we may have to replace it. The various options vary, in cost, from hundreds up to $26,000, which captures my attention but it is also just material stuff and money, items of little importance. I wish to quiet the "clamoring" of my brain (monkey mind) which tends to give this topic more than it deserves!

Near-Death-Experience

When I had my Near-Death-Experience I could feel the Love of God and with that love was its strong "desire" (not the right word since it is human and God is more, but the best I can do) to create more love. The nature of love is that it creates more love, it spreads and increases. At that time I chose to come back to the living and be part of spreading that love, I felt I could do no less. That was a fine choice which has yielded incredible riches for me. I need to keep my focus on that choice or I slip back into my old ways, in spite of how harmonious it feels.

God's Love

I need to always to remember that "To be perfect in God’s eyes is to be my whole self" (Elizabeth Ostrander Sutton) and that God’s Love is very powerful, absolute and unconditional. I could feel all of that during my Near-Death-Experience and will never forget it — at least not for long. Like many of my fellow humans, I "have a history" and I am not totally free of my frailties in the present. I could feel that none of that made any difference, that reality did not diminish God’s Love in any way. The feeling was much stronger than anything of human origin.

Eternity

I was just meditating and when I do that I feel the Loving and powerful presence of God and I know that everything in the world is in divine order. Earlier in the day I was talking to someone about the rampant unethical practices that many business people employ and I was also reading in the Washington Post about some of the destructive practices and problems all over the world. Both are true. The first view being love based, eternal and the second being fear based, worldly. As a culture we have not "hit bottom" yet and decided to turn our behavior around. Personally, I have hit my bottom. I then decided to reverse my self-destructive, hurt, angry behavior and became more ethical, loving and service oriented. I am still working on it!

Holistic Healing

Five days ago I re-committed myself to further relaxing my jaw and since then I have focused on relaxing and done healing touch on my face, jaw, brain and upper spine. For some reason (possibly the relaxation), I have not bitten the inside of my cheek since then. I am aware that this is only the beginning of this effort and I wonder where it will lead. "But if I, as a physician, cure someone and aid him or her to become less vulnerable to that disease again, then I am a good doctor. But if I, as a doctor, cure someone, aid him or her to become less vulnerable to that disease, and help him or her to understand their place in the universe, then I am a healer." (Carl A. Hammerschlag, M.D.)