Spiritual Path

  “Let’s be clear that “being at the spiritual game” means dedicating your whole mind, your whole body, your whole soul to the process of creating Self in the image and likeness of God.

This is the process of Self realization about which Eastern mystics have written.  It is the process of salvation to which much Western theology has devoted itself.

This is a day-to-day, hour-to-hour, moment-to-moment act of supreme consciousness.  It is a choosing and a re-choosing every instant.  It is ongoing creation.  Conscious creation.  Creation with a purpose.  It is using the tools of creation we have discussed, and using them with awareness and sublime intention. (Walsch) That is quite a statement, yet it is also what I do and I know the truth of it.  In my case I follow that path partly because my life depends on it — at least that’s how it began for me.  I now follow it because of the overwhelming love I find there.  There is no other choice for me.

Service

  During my NDE I was offered the chance to return to the world of the living and be “of service” which was the choice I took.  In order for me to be of maximum service it is important for me to realize that I made that choice easily and purely because of the love I felt there.  There was no coercion, feeling of attachment or wanting to be worthy leading to that choice.  It made no difference to me that I would be returning to a life of discomfort.  I came back because part of the inherent nature of love is it produces more love — it spreads.  I am helping that spread.  I need not do anything remarkable in order to be of maximum service, just spread the love.

Internal Conflict

  This morning, as I wake up and begin moving around, my muscles feel like there has been a battle or conflict raging within them during the night.  I often feel stiffness, small pains and tightness in the mornings when I wake up reflecting an inner conflict.  During my early years, I grew while believing I was flawed and unworthy, though I never knew compared to what.  Since that time I have endeavored to give up those thought and move on with my life.  Those feelings reappear at times and remind me of the past.  "As we stop the war, each of us will find something from which we have been running -- our loneliness, our unworthiness, our boredom, our shame, our unfulfilled desires." (Jack Kornfield)

Beyond Understanding

  I suspect I am not alone but I have had several occurrences in my life that are beyond the understanding of my linear, logical mind.  These are occurrences that could not have happened, but, never the less, did.  The first that I recall happened when I was a child growing up in Michigan and the last happened a couple of years ago in Maryland at the age of seventy.  Some happenings were spectacular and memorable like being “jerked out of space/time” or having a third degree burn healed in minutes, while others were less notable like seeing and feeling a cigarette butt flung at me when by back was turned and I was wearing clothing that would have prevented my feeling it.  I end up knowing, feeling and experiencing things that could not have happened.  It would be foolish of me to not admit that there must be some sort of power “out there” looking out for me, a Loving and protective presence.  “A mystical touch is a deep, intimate contact-union-experience of God in one of His attributes such as power, light, goodness, beauty, or joy.” (Thomas Dubay, S. M.)

Growth

  In my own quiet way I continue to explore and expand my notions of healing, my position in the universe and reality in general.  I do this largely through meditation and my own practices.  Recently, my main explorations have been in the spirit realm, healing and what I call the “unseen realm”.  I continue to explore, in part, because I get positive results.  What I do and believe works so I suspect there is something there.  I have always liked the phrase from Martin Bell that "Revelation means getting a peek at the reality that is always there."  I also keep in mind that "There are many territories of imagination and many strange regions of emotion that we may not enter without throwing our sanity into question: Until we cross some borders, we are likely to remain rational, banal, boring, bored. A major concern of any therapeutic psychology should be to help an individual lose identity." (Sam Keen and Anne Valley-Fox).

Self-care

  I feel and act out of love daily if I am in decent emotional and spiritual condition which requires self-care and introspection.  I also have as part of me a selfish and fearful side, which does not get expressed and usually is not even felt.  Yesterday the comments of other people on Zoom reminded me that I feel that part when I’m not taking care of myself.  I grew up feeling and expressing that part since it was all I knew.  I did not enjoy feeling that way and nether did the people around me.  My recovery has shown me a more loving and spiritual approach to life which I much prefer.

Love

    God’s love which I felt so strongly during my N.D.E. is absolute and unconditional, meaning it is always there and available to everyone.  That love is the same whether you are Jesus or the person nailing him to the cross, Mother Teresa or Hitler.  That love made me decide to come back to the physical world.  That love provides healing of all types.  This world is full of hate, fear, anger and aggression which will create more of the same no matter how it is expressed and no matter how justified it seems.  Love will do the same so I choose love.  I can do no less.

Understanding?

  For the last day and right now it has been occurring just how much I do not really understand what I am doing each day.  I believe that I work mainly in the spirit realm and its impact on living people but am aware even that could be an active imagination.  My understanding is that within the spirit realm there is an atmosphere of God’s love which is absolute and unconditional so there is no duality as in our realm.  The spirit realm is also non-material or physical so conditions there are beyond my understanding.  My task seems to be to spread that love as much as possible which I do daily and beyond that I do not understand — but then “understanding is not required”.

Love

  During my Near-Death-Experience I was told “This is what it feels like to be dead” and I felt the indescribably intense and beautiful Love of God which other NDErs have also experienced.  The love that I experienced then and have come to know through meditation is both  absolute and unconditional, meaning it is always present and exhibits none of the fluctuation or duality of human love.  I do not pretend to understand it, but do feel it and now live within that love.  “The kingdom of God is not coming with signs that can be observed, nor will they say; ‘Look here it is!’ or ‘There it is!’ for the kingdom of God is within you.” (gospel of Luke)

Holistic Healing

  In 1988 during a clinical trial shortly after being diagnosed with cerebellar degeneration, a chronic degeneration of the cerebellum, I discovered that I could override an “involuntary” reflex by using meditation.  The technician running the experiment became quite upset when I did not exhibit the expected response so I stopped using meditation when undergoing experiments. Shortly after this I found that I could influence (later control) my muscle activity using the level of focus I had during meditation.  At the same time I found that I could use the power of love/God to heal myself physically.  I have using and expanding on those techniques ever since and have taught them to others.