Joy

Yesterday I wrote of feeling lost and I must admit to feeling lost, impatient and fearful much of the time with joy always there around the corner to be felt any time I get reminded. For example today was a day of performing household duties like shopping and cooking while feeling groundless and impatient to feel something more concrete. I had periodic flashes of joy at seeing the young mothers with their small children or the gratitude for being able to cook. Throughout the day I listened and meditated. "We want to be spiritually alive, but also to be comfortable; to be prayerful, but not to rise early in the morning to pray; to possess power to lead, but not to undergo the discipline that it takes to control the power." (Gilbert Kilpack)