Gifts

This morning I am especially aware that I have several special “gifts” from God/Universe which I have come to depend on daily.  The foundation for those gifts is a close connection with God and the people I work with.  I can sense eternity, God’s Love and guidance and many things about other people.  That connection adds a sense of purpose and fullness to my life.  Offshoots of that connection include; knowing things, self-healing, healing of others and a sense of well-being.  I cannot say that I worry about losing those gifts but I feel reassured when I see evidence of their presence in my life, which I have seen recently.  As if to increase my awareness, those gifts were taken from me for part of a day a few years ago — a horrible feeling.  I am grateful for their presence.

 

Acceptance

  The roads around my house are snow covered since it is twenty-two degrees and snowed yesterday.  Today seems like a good day to be peaceful, quiet and stay at home doing some exercise, cleaning and cooking.  Yesterday I talked with someone who’s refrigerator is not working, reminding me that I can also be grateful for having a warm house with working appliances.  As is usually the case, my best option is to peacefully accept the reality of what is and go about enjoying my day.

Listening

  Today I feel “solid”, not positive but more neutral which means that I was able to listen clearly yesterday and act accordingly.  Yesterday I felt the need for sorting/contemplative time which I did until that time was complete (three hours).  I took the time to sit and do absolutely nothing, which is hard for me since I have an internal voice that interferes with my listening by urging me to be active, to do things.  Nothing has really changed, the world is still in chaos and I still have assorted joint pain but I feel good about being able to listen about my own needs.

Sorting Time

  This morning I am feeling a pull to have more “sorting” time for myself, time to do nothing but sit and contemplate my life with no distractions like TV or radio.  It’s a feeling of being slightly off center, a feeling of things not being quite right.  It’s not that I am busy at all — I am not.  I just need a lot of quiet, sorting time in order to feel well balanced..  That will be easy to arrange all I need is the discipline necessary — no problem. “It [inner silence] is to establish an inner peace, an inner harmony, which will allow us authentically to contribute to the establishment of an outer peace and an outer harmony in the world at large.” (Seeger)

Acceptance

  I have noticed that I have an insidious tendency to interact with the world as I perceive it rather than the reality of the way it is.  I can have attitudes or beliefs that prevent me from really seeing things as they are and, then, as a result, reacting less affectively.  For example, my perception of my physical condition often depends on my mood at the time.  If my mood is depressed or sad I tend to have a low opinion of my abilities and, conversely, if my mood  is on the manic side I tend to overrate myself.   I do better when I can simply accept things the way they are.  It is only when I have total acceptance of reality that I can take maximally affective actions.

Holistic Healing

  Yesterday I wrote of the power and force of love to affect behavior and attitude in some and perhaps all life situations.  I use that power for my own physical healing and have taught the practice to others.  There are also other sources of power which can be used similarly.  For example, while sitting near the ocean it is possible to feel its energy or the turbulent energy of the ocean during a storm and then the nurturing energy of a bay or estuary.  During meditations I like to harmonize with these and other sources of power and use those powers for healing.

Love

  People frequently speak of love as existing between individuals in a relationship, like in a family, a friendship or romantically and resulting in an increased commitment to each other.  It can be more than that.  As I learned in my N.D.E., love can also be a more general approach to all of life situations.  In that case, love is a force or power that is capable of changing people’s attitudes and actions.  For example, during my N.D.E. I was given a choice between staying dead, which felt wonderful, peaceful, loving and free or returning to earthly existence and being of service.  I chose to come back purely because of the love I felt and a desire to align myself with that feeling.  I now have the feeling of love towards all people, places and things which certainly changes my behavior and I spread that love as much as I can.

Kingdom of God

  I find myself wishing that I had the words to express how good I feel right now about the world I live in.  I have that feeling of peace, love and joy “that surpasses all understanding”.  I also readily understand the chaos and problems in the world around me; the pandemic, global warming, civil wars and a narcissistic president who does not accept reality.  I also realize that I am seventy-two, disabled and in pain much of the time.  In the perspective of eternity and God’s world things are in divine order.  “The kingdom of God is not coming with signs that can be observed, nor will they say; ‘Look here it is!’ or ‘There it is!’ for the kingdom of God is within you.” (gospel of Luke)

Gratitude

  I wake this morning feeling grateful for life as it is, a good feeling.  There are many aspects of my life that I wish were different and I do everything I can to make things better while also being grateful for the way things are.  Yesterday I exercised, meditated and then spent several hours making preparations for cooking a big batch of spaghetti sauce.  I was busier than I like and those activities would have taken a normal person a lot less time.  I am grateful I could do them at all and today will be more relaxed.  We are in the midst of a pandemic and I am isolating.  I am also healthy and the isolation gives me more time to reflect and meditate.  “We simply do not know.  Scientists discover and theologians affirm; but faced with the mystery of life and death we know almost nothing. (deCastillejo)

The Unseen

There is a tremendous amount of information floating around within the “empty” space surrounding each of us which I attempt to access through quiet meditation or just sitting and listening.  Watching animals respond to unseen forces has helped convince me of the importance of listening to the Universe.  I have also been strongly influenced by the unseen energies of God, love, beauty and spirits.  “I tell you, I am in every flower, every rainbow, every star in the heavens, and everything in and on every planet rotating around every star.  I am the whisper of the wind, the warmth of your sun, the incredible individuality and the extraordinary perfection of each snowflake.  I am the majesty in the soaring flight of eagles, and the innocence of the doe in the field; the courage of lions, the wisdom of the ancient ones.” (Walsch)